....LiVe liFe to tHe FullEst....

2010-06-14T10:11:00.002+08:00

helloos...

its been a long long time since i have enjoyed myself with my beloved boyfie..hehe..On Saturday boyfie and me met his night job friends and we all went to watch karate kid together..haha..then after that we went to eat at the hawker centre at geylang the panggung they called it and ate there while watcing the argentina match and we talk2 and joke ard until we did not realise it was gg to be 11pm then i told him we better make a move or my parents will kill me..so he sped thru the expreswe from geylang to wdlds and we were home 30 min later. haha..i slept straightaway lor only to dream that 3 or 4 of my teeth drop pff..patah lah gitu..then i knew it meant something bad will happen..but i don wanna read too much into this...

then the next day he fetch me before meeting other karisma members to go for the wedding escort..from wdlds to hougang..team pakara, karisma, hokaido and spore bikes asc..haha..4 teams..and itt was sort of speeding escrot since its a long way from wlds to hougang..after taking pictures eating and resting for a while, we set off to another venue bt panjang..we realise one team member was missing..munir donno since he leading the team on the front..meon then caught up with us to stop somewhere so that iman can find us..we waited for iman at the bridge whereby he managed to catch up..otw it rained..heavily summore..haiya..but we all speed thru lor..eat somemore there ..2 rounds..lepak at least 2hrs sambil waiting for the rain to stop but it nvr stop so at 5 we just went to geylang there to have a karaoke session..haha..but me and boyfie nvr sing ..for 3 hrs they want us to sing but we fend them off..haha..

then tot of gg with them to eat but then changed our mind..tired lah..so pat, ika, abg and me went home..we always go home together as all of us gg wdlds..if abg marry me then his home will be at wdlds too..hehe..lup u syg..finally spent time with abg..slept starightaway..eheh

2010-05-19T16:58:00.002+08:00

Guess what..im busy again...aiyoh..

Really i have no life is it..??!!
Damn..but whatever..all im focusing in my final yr is to get thru the yr without repeating any module..do well like abg wants me to do..then i can concentrate on finding a job to start saving up.

My life is a torture w/o spending the times with abg..He is busy working 2 full time jobs for the sake of our future..and he don have enough sleep..that is what hurt me most..every single time we go out its just for 3 to 4 hrs and i have to hear him say im tired..very tired..i am sad..the only time i get to spend with him is sspoiled just like that..its taking a toll on me..and him.. but i am trying my best to cope with it..everytime i go out with him.. i will just try to spend it as memorable as i could..our life now is like fiance fiancee relationship even though its not official. haiz..but i guess patience comes a long way..im thinking next 3 to 4 yrs insya Allah we will get married..hmm..i need a job soon after graduation to catch up with him by that time..

and school is not helping at all..entrepreneur can just go down the drain..its damn taxing and tiring..taking too much of our time with all those bloody research..on top of 5 other modules..when im at the point of breaking down i will inform every single one of u..haha..just kidding..tolerance, patience, determination and perseverance is all that i need right now..even when i sleep i will bring my modules with me..when i wake up i feel like i did not sleep one bit..tiring...

but here i am..just updating..:)

bye need to research for more things now...

2010-03-26T17:03:00.002+08:00

Ok its been a while since i update huh.. ok.. the good thing is that abg and me is still together..hehe..alhmadulilah..sayng banget dgn dier..hehe

been busy with attachment ..another 5 more weeks and everything is over. then back to study and exams then work..hmm, im planning to take my driving licence soon and abg is supportive of me. he say once i get my licence its gonna be my turn to fetch him..haha..then u buy a car for me lah..bluek..

but i am very grateful to him that he fetch me every single day from work even tho he works 2 job, dont have enough sleep and tired. so i made it a point to help him top up his cashcard. and if its raining then he will not fetch me. so sweet of him lah..thank you sayang. i love u darling.

hmm wat else u wanna know..hmm..im still trying to discipline him to save his money. i know its impossible but nothing is impossible. i know he will try his best. for now whatever money he gave me for my everyday allowances, i will try to save his money. but he dont know. he tot i use it up. but i will just keep it in the bank. hehe..for now we are taking it up step by step. little baby steps but we will make it through. :)

2010-02-28T11:51:00.002+08:00

Here i am ..suppose to enjoy the weekends with him but somehow everything gone wrong..later on after his escort i will be meeting him to settle our problem..i guess everything is over betweeen us.even if we manage to salvage this rship, nothing is ever gonna be the same.. evrything change just because of one thing that he misunderstands abt me and nvr bother to clear the air with me.

whatever it is i love him and my love for him will nvr change even if he starts to change.. just hope he is happy la with his so called friends and i will make it clear to him that i wont help him in his payment anymore. hope his so called loyal and always be there friends will help him since he thinks they are more impt than me..

Anniversary

2010-02-18T13:36:00.004+08:00

It was my 1 yr and 11 mths anniversary with boyfie and i had to receive bad news..My boyfriend has just been in an accident yesterday on his way back from his night job and im so sad..but thank goodness his injuries were not so serious just some bruises and abrasions..haiz..and he has not yet recover from his fall at his workplace. to add to that he is still sick and his teeth just grew and that made him suffer from migraine..haiz..

if only he can stay with me and i can take care of his food and health and well being..:(

but he is fine now and im grateful he is still here with me..I love you sayang no matter what..

Resurrected ME!!

2010-02-15T15:54:00.002+08:00

Hi guys..hmm...its been a long time since i have update my blog.
As usual i have no idea whether this time im going to try to keep it alive or not cause sometimes im too busy or another word is lazy that i cant be bothered to even post an entry. However i will try my best to keep my blog alive as much as i can even if its once a month..so feel free to indulge in my boring life once again..hahah

First and foremost, i will update aboout my skool life..hmm..my 2nd yr have come and passed by so fast that i dont even realise its going to be my 3rd year soon..haha..exams have just past and this one week hoiliday, im going to spend it by catching up with my sleep, my family as well as abg..cause staring from 22nd feb im going to start attachment with this company at dhoby gaut..super tired man this yr i can just count the days that i spend to myself..haiz...and yarh..the friends i made is so much appreciated..hehe..cass i still love u no matter how many times i get angry with u or no matter how many times i nag at you..hehe..don take it to heart cause i am very motherly type u know..:)

Secondly, my relationship with abg..hmm..its going to be 2 long years come next month..and finally he have taken the great step to start saving even tho its not much but at least he has taken that huge initiative and we have come to learn more abt each other during our relationship with each other.. We learn that not always things will go our way and we have to try to let go of those things that are not in our reach and focus on the things that are within our reach. I am definitely so happy with him..

Our plan: Just to save as much money as we can and make a better life for both of us. And definitely get married of course. cause thats why we are both working hard to tighten our finances.

Oteys..im going to continue figuring out something meanwhile adios amigoz..

Wordofwisdom: In a relationship, fights and quarrels are so inevitable. We can prevent it from happening tho by respecting each other as well as each other's private spaces. At times our partners need to be alone and our duties is to let them be alone for a moment.

2009-10-08T19:21:00.002+08:00

Hai I'm back

Updates??

Boyfie and me have been doing superbly well spending lots of time for the past 2 weeks almost evry day together cause he leave for overseas reservist to taiwan..So in love with abg..and i regard him as my hubby already..

he left for taiwan yesterday and i practically cried myself to sleep. Even tho ppl tried to console me to just pray for his safety and well being, i still cant help but feel so sadden by his departure. No matter what ppl say i know wat i have to do. but the thing is i am still worried for him. im scared anything will happen to him. nobody will understand my situation because they have nvr went thru this before.

it is so sad..i cried a lot 2 days before he left and the day he left i did not cry cause i don him to be worried abt me and he praised me saying "thats my good girl..im proud of you.." and i wanted to burst into tears.

just now i was doing my report annd suddenly my mind thought of him and i wanted to cry right thhere but i told myself not to cry in school.

i really love him more than anything..pls come back syg..i need you..

nobody to call me in the middle of the night and asking me to go to sleep. nobody to msg me .. nobody to take care of my life and nobody to be concern when im sick..yup the love from family is different from the love experience with bf..

i need to be brave..pls help me !!! im not that strong..

2009-08-29T13:31:00.003+08:00

Updates????

Okay the fasting month is going smoothly for me. I'll be getting busier now that i have more projects which means more reports and projects that need me to travel around to shopping centres. haiz..so tiring i guess and i will be doing a lot of overtime as the places i need to go are mostly at the east area and yup the hougang area. why cant i just go to causeway point. hmm..

as for my relationship with boyfie it is still strong even tho we are going thru tough times whereby our patience for each other is running thin and ya when i get on his nerves he back off and when he gets on my nerves i will back off..i learn from my secondary skool experience that fire cant fight with fire.so when he is the fire i willl become the water and vice versa..compromising can be quite easy but at times tough. no matter what we will still be with each other..i just don want him to go overseas reservist. i will miss him alot.. :( what am i gonna do then ,,haiz.. nobody to accompany me... can i follow him overseas..i will smuggle myself maybe and tag along with him..haha..joking..

okay..theres nothing more to say..so bored..

2009-08-04T09:53:00.003+08:00

Boyfie is so thin now. It breaks my heart to see him so thin. As a result, im feeling the strain from it. Sometimes i can be very difficult with him. I will create problems unintentionally. He would always be frustrated but never angry no matter what. It hurts me sometimes to see what he is going thru but he never let his problems affect us. If it was me, i would vent it out on anybody who step on my toes. but he would nvr be able to get angry with me.

To somebody,
try and try and try but nobody understands. some even doubt. C'mon lah, we don need ur freaking help.just try to emphatize la..fyi, emphatize is to put urself in somebody else's shoes. thats why nobody ever ask for ur help. im telling u if u cant learn to emphatize, then no matter how successful u are u still lack the humanity in u. but thats just the fact that u are just plain coldblooded..i will prove to u that i can be as successful as any other being in this world and i will make sure that u don look down on ppl like me. i will work towards that and u will be the source of my motivation. i will look at ur face and that face will always remind me not be a coldhearted coldblooded jerk that can ever live and breathe in this world. and in future like say 10 freaking long years down the road, if u need help then please..and i mean it...please don even bother to ask for help especially mine.ppl like you are just plain insensitive. i will make sure u eat ur words. the smirk on ur face i will wipe it off and if i ever die before that happens then i think its ur lucky day. hope something similar will happen to u not ur close friends or family but somebody u love so so much and dearly. its cruel of me to say this i know but wat to do life is cruel..

2009-07-24T15:04:00.002+08:00

Beyonce - Flaws and all

I'm a train wreck in the morning
I'm a bitch in the afternoon
Every now and then without warning
I can be really mean towards you

I'm a puzzle yes indeed
Ever complex in every way
And all the pieces aren't even in the box
And yet, you see the picture clear as day

(chorus)
I don't know why you love me
And that's why I love you
You catch me when I fall
Accept me flaws and all
And that's why I love you
And that's why I love you
And that's why I love you

I neglect you when I'm working
When I need attention I tend to nag
I'm a host of imperfection
But you see past all that

I'm a peasant by some standards
But in your eyes I'm a queen
You see potential in all my flaws
And that's exactly what I need

[chorus:] [2x]
I don't know why you love me
And that's why I love you
You catch me when I fall
Accept me flaws and all
And that's why I love you
And that's why I love you
And that's why I love you

Hmm.. I came across this song and there is alot of meaning in the lyrics and beyond that it reflects alot about me and him. Only both of us know. Yup our r/ship is now stable but there are questions here and there...i love him..:)

2009-07-22T18:14:00.002+08:00

Deleted my last entry cause i was rambling while crying so i wasnt thinking right.

Life can be unfair but it is also fair. Like God will take something back if he gave something to u. i have always believe in that. Thus now i donno wat to say anymore.

aku kesiankan dier sgt.lps satu masalah dtg lagi satu masalah. dan kdg2 satu masalah yg dtg tu belom tentu selesai dah ditimpa lagi satu masalah. aku tahu dier penat sgt tapi demi masa depan dier aku cuba encourage dier like he would encourage us. haiz..kenape lah hidup dier susah sgt. haiz..takper lah.

holidays is here and other than finding a job im gg to clean my room. my room is like a pig sty.

hehe..this is random..i asked him why i should call him abg when all his other ex girlfriend dont call him abg. then he answered cause u are the special one..aww..so sweet..hehe..i love u sayang.. muahh..

2009-07-06T17:41:00.002+08:00

Wow...

Yesterday there was a lot of first time for me. boyfie and me spent like more than half an hr on the void deck to wait for the rain to stop. Very sian lah. he was mad at me for not telling him that it was raining. but i inform him. its just too late. then i retorted back that i am nt a weather forecaster that i know it was gg to rain. he was drenched. thank goodness i have an extra shirt for him to wear. so at 1 plus, we set off to pasir ris park to see ppl pancing ikan.. then we went to changi to fill our starving stomachs and we takeaway and ate at changi beach..at changi while queing up for our nasi lemak, we saw a monkey la..so dirty sia the place.

for the first time i saw the airplanes and everything. i was so happy and like curious. i kept asking boyfie a lot of questions. he still layan me tau.. hehe. then i felt drizzling. he still wanna stay. hehe. within 5 minutes it was pouring. see what happens if a husband never listens to the wife. haha.we sought shelter at the bus stop and in like 15 mins we conclude that the rain wont stop. so we just go ahead with our journey.

it was painful mind u...and i think he cannot tahan so when we saw esso we stay there for a while to rest and fill his petrol. my babyboi is soaked and wet..

then we went to mount faber ... after like half an hr..he was shivering and i was scared he couldnt ctrl his grip. he was shivering on the bike and he practically ride at 20 km/h at the winding road down the hill. after that we went straight to vivo watch transformers and reach home at 1120 like that. half and hr from vivo to wdlds.. cause he took shortcut lah and ride very fast. Maybe its not fast it just that the wind made it feel very fast. it was so cold..one whole day drench in rain..hehe..

missing u so much my dear..

2009-07-04T17:12:00.001+08:00

Birthday Celebration
HAPPY BELATED 21st BDAE WAWA!!

It was very fun yesterday. We plan to meet at Cathay by 7pm. So after skool, boyfie fetch me then we went home for a while to put my bag and laptop before setting off to orchard. Before which, we bought coupons and top up his cashcard. Upon reaching there, i saw wawa.. hehe. she reached first lah.so punctual..

then after boyfies finished smoking, we set off to meet wanie and boyfie. then we ate at ljs cause i don like eating pastamania. boyfie oso don like. husband and wife mah.. must share the same taste. aniwaes, after eating, we tot of watching movie. then we decided against it as the timing is late so we abandon the plan and we decided to suprised wawa. at first we want to sit at dhoby gaut park then we chose esplanade as we had free parking and its convenient for wanie. wanie went to buy the bdae cake which took a long time like maybe an hr. then when she reach esplanade we surprised her even tho the wind spoil the blowing of candle.but its ok. we camwhore alot and we ate the cake. the remainder wawa took home..hehe.

but the going home part was sad. i tot it was only 9 something so can still lepak lah but when boyfie ask when wanna go home, i realise it was already 1010. so we went toilet before setting off and we went separate ways. :(

and on the bike i was like dozing off quite a lot la..at one pt of time i think i was sleeping when suddenly this bike suddenly kilas us so fast and loud lah and i almost jump off my seat.:( hehe.

anyway to falik, happy 25th bdae too k..hehe.

2009-07-01T20:44:00.002+08:00

Hello!!!!

hehe..im back..for those who is wondering how i've been doing ..im doing fine..thank you..

anyway, boyfie bike is hospitalised at workshop for servicing..so sad. boyfie miss babyboi during their one day apart.It was supposed to be 2 days but boyfie is so sad that it was cut down to one day. And i followed him to simei to get his bike there. and we along with hakim and zaki spent almost 3 hrs at the workshop cause hakim wanted to buy his kawa bike so much and its such a darling. i feel so jealous lah..his is more beautiful thanboyfie's bike. then we headed down to bedok to buy food for hakims dad before gg tampines to grab a bite. i was so famished lah. we were join by nas. we reached home 15 minutes to 11. hehe..he ride so fast that from tamp to wdlds its just 40 min. haha..and believe it or not i slept hugging him and didnt wake up till i felt him cornering on strips line. i was so scared i would fall off..and it was drizzlinfg a bit. i also felt that my leg was numb. i had pins and needles lor. sian lah..

i realise that i have been hanging around with his friends these days. Hakim knows me already now and im like more open to talk to them when they ask me question cause i don wanna be label a mute person. boyfie and me is going through a rough patch financially and when i meven mention that i want to work part time again he says, not now. He wants me to really concentrate on my studies and he says that im susceptible to illness nowadays during this period of time since its flu season as well as the haze season. he don wan my asthma to come back. its nice of him but i feel that i need to work and in the meantime i don wanna hurt him and disrespect his decision.i am still thinking of a win-win situation. haiz.

Wawa, wanie...when is our next date. i know its on a friday but when.. missing all of ya!!

BOYFIE'S RESERVIST IS POSTPONED TO 6 OCTOBER...!!! SO ELATED..IM SO HAPPY I CAN CELEBRATE HIS BDAE AND RAYA TOGETHER...!!!

2009-06-23T16:45:00.002+08:00

Hello!!

I am trying to make an effort to make this blog alive once again..hehe..

Okie.. Last week, was the last week of my attachment at MSC. There was not much to learn about since i think what im majoring at has not much to do with what i learn. So it cause me to lose interest very fast. It was a week of happiness for me. Finally i handed over my duties to the new batch to see them suffer. *evil laugh*..haha

It was a happy week for me also because boyfie fetch me from school for 3 days and we met on both weekends. Like wth we have nothing to do izzit..And this week he wanted to meet me again. then i said no lah..just meet on weekends..

Today was the start of classical lessons for me i.e. the customer service and project mgmt thingy. stupid thing but i loike cause get to sit at tutorial room and day dream. hehe..most of my classmates are from MSC so we dont need to do icebreaking anymore la..im looking forward to lessons at least even tho come to school for 3 hrs more or less almost 3 times a week. So happy right. but nonetheless, i will try to enjoy this stopover better i think. heheee

::lurblurbs::

2009-06-15T14:43:00.004+08:00

Dedicated to my beloved sayang,

I Will Never Find Another Lover Sweeter Than You

Sweeter Than You

And I Will Never Find Another Lover More Precious Than You

More Precious Than You

Boy You Are.. Close To Me You're Like My Mother,
Close To Me You're Like My Father,
Close To Me You're Like My Sister,
Close To Me You're Like My Brother

And You Are The Only One My Everything

And For You This Song I Sing....

All My Life
I Prayed For Someone Like You
And I Thank God That I..That I Finally Found You
All My Life
I Prayed For Someone Like You
And I Hope That You Feel The Same Way Too
Yes, I Pray That You Do Love Me Too

I'd Send You All That I'm Thinking Of........
Baby Said I Promise To Never Fall In Love With A Stranger
You're All I'm Thinking Of
I Praise The Lord Above
For Sending Me Your Love I Cherish Every Hug

I Really Love You All My Life (Ohhhh..Baby, Baby)I Prayed For Someone Like You

And I Thank God That I...

That I Finally Found You

All My Life I Prayed For Someone Like You

And I Hope That You Feel The Same Way Too

Yes, I Pray That You Do Love Me Too

You're All That I Ever Know,

When You Smile All My Face Always Seems To Glow,

You Turned My Life Around,

You Picked Me Up When I Was Down,

You're All That I've Ever Known,
When You Smile My Face Glows
You Picked Me Up When I Was Down

You're All That I've Ever Known
When You Smile My Face Glows
You Picked Me Up When I Was Down

And I Hope That You Feel The Same Way Too
Yes, I Pray That You Do Love Me Too
And All My Life I Prayed For Someone Like You
And I Thank God That I..
That I Finally Found You
All My Life I Prayed For Someone Like You
Yes, I Pray That You Do Love Me Too
All My Life I Prayed For Someone Like You
And I Thank God That I ..
That I Finally Found You

All My Life I Prayed For Someone Like You
Yes, I Pray That You Do Love Me Too

Abg, I love you from the bottom of my heart sincerely..

Thank you for loving me.

2009-06-13T21:38:00.000+08:00

Today was great. It was full of first times. Boyfie n I met at wdlds mrt station. Finally today, I had the courage to ride on his bike. He waited for me at the taxi stand. i saw him and his bike. He put on the helmet for me and asked me to sit on his bike.Ok..ppl might laugh at me. but it was my first time. when he started to move i feel blood rushing to my head and i wanted to vomit. i hugged him tightly and he knew straightaway from my body language that i was scared. then he asked me to just hug him tightly and follow wherever his body goes. Since it was my first time, he did not exceed 100km/h. he was consistent and he didnt do his racing stunts. i felt comfortable after some time and i began to relax.

he headed to punggol where we went to meet adi aka his gay partner in karisma team. we waited for him. then when he saw me, he was shocked. cause he tot i couldnt ride boyfie's bike. we chatted for quite sometime while waiting for another friend meon..hehe..funny name..then he sat down for a while before we sat off to tampines to visit his cousin aka vice president of the team, khai. then we sat down at the carpark and we asked khai how he was and everything. he was injured la..but he was okay. talk2 for a while till close to five. then we leave adi and meon cause me and boyfie wants to go dating . then meon was like..aww so sweet. hehe..

then we made our way to marina barrage and we walked2 and talked2before making our way to vivo to eat our favourite food, kfc lah. then we saw the dark clouds and he was worried that we would get caught in the rain. then after smoking and clearing his bladders, we made our way to esso to fill his petrol when we felt drizzles of rain. then being the stubborn guy he is, we just ended the west coast way when it rain heavily and yes ah it was so painful and i was wet. my firat time on a bike and i get to experience all the weather like rain cold hot and etc. so we stop under the bridge. and waited for the rain to clear cause the rain was also hurting his already injured hand. while waiting he showed me a disgusting thing he did. he go and wee-wee there, right infornt of me. stupid sia..then i turn on my radio and started my speech. then he keep on laughing la..hello not funny k. then after 10 minutes we sat off home.hehe. and the wind made me almost felt asleep. then he scolded me. hehe.i can sleep anywhere what. kate kaki tdo kan..heh.

then we lepak at the void deck for a while with kakak while waiting for anai, kakak's date as well as boyfie's friend.after alnoat an hr then he sent me up before setting off to east coast his friends pit. haiz..had a wonderful time with boyfie today. so happy. i love him so much tau..

2009-06-07T12:01:00.002+08:00

hmm..its been a long time since i have blog. cause one thing i have no interest an dim quite bz.

hmm..Life has been good in terms of relationship wise. me and boyfie has been surviving for almost a yr aand 3 mths now. hehe..alhandulilah.cause i feel so blissful when im with him. he is trying to find extra cash by working part time and odd jobs to pay for his inspection road tax and his insurance. and im helping him to save his money like not spending and eating or bingeing on unnecessarilly.now when we go out we either just hang out and have fun or just spend time with each other. we are also having a problem abt this other outsider in our rship. but i guess if he has anything or something to do with tat bitch then he wouldnt tell me in the first place. so the fact that he inform me means that he is being truthful to himself and me and proves to me that he is serious in our relationship.

skool wise..i just am counting the days to freedom la..i have no interest in this shit now.. im putting in my best and hoping that i can go through this phase...

2009-04-05T11:05:00.003+08:00

Last Friday was so fun...meetups with my besties..i miss them so muchie..i made my way to vivo and met wawa at the harbourfront interchge..made our way to vivo to wait for wanie and while waiting , we chat abt our secondary days and sttuff..

then wanie came and we were like missing one anotehr so much that we hug each other in public. We then went to the harbourfront cntre banquet and ate here since wanie and wawa was straving as they had just came from work..so sweet right..

we went outside and sat there and took pictures with one another. and we talk abt our present lives and reminisce abt the past and also talk abt our boyfies adn most importantly...marriage..we talk abt who is gg to get married first and i guess its wawa..or maybe wanie..hehe:)

anyway who is getting married will sure make one another our most beloved bridesmaid..hehe..just talking and catching up with them makes me realise how much true friends i have..i miss them so much and i just want them to know that no matter what happens i will always be there for them and i wont forget them..aku sayang sgt2 dgn wawa and wanie..so so much . . mmuaahhh..hehe..hope we get together again..kaes..hehe

2009-03-30T10:14:00.007+08:00

And yeah..took this photo of him..my sayang..and below are his injured hand.. *sobsobs* he had an accident last wednesday and i keep bumping into his injured hand and it pains him and i keep apologising non stop even though he said its not painful..but his wincing shows me that he is in pain...sorry..and the funny thing is when he sent me home we accidentally bump into my parents and he said he wanted to hide in the letter box..at last he met my parents and he was scared .. i can see that..now its my turn..brace yourself lina..come hari raya..insya Allah, we be meeting his parents...hehe..Cyg abg so much dear..

Yesterday we had a girls outing..my sisters and i went karaoke-ing at Partyworld..we sang our hearts out and we had fun..but too bad we cant finish our selected songs cause time is not in our favour...haiz..we walked for a while to shop for mimi's things then i had to leave them..

:( anyway i had to rush to meet my boyfie...and guess what ..he was late yet again...he left his telok blangah house at 1.50 and reach wdlds at 210..omg he speed lah..then he park his bike at my house and made his way to the station and at 230 we made our way to our destination...heheh..

2009-03-19T11:36:00.002+08:00

I hate working now that its the school holidays..

why do ppl generally come to the library when it comes to 15 minutes before time and mess up the place that we have cleaned up and straightened the books..i am so fed up man..pls lah..

i mean some ppl even come and ask us to find the books for them as if we are their maids and some can be so damn demanding la..like as if they wanna be spoonfed like their maids do at home..they say "i search already but cannot find.." bull....if i can find the book, it just proves that they did nt search for it..bull right..stupid fools..pls spare a thought and put the books back where it came from. if u don know then put it on any trolleys. my place can be a tsunami ..haiz..

haiz...im so tired that i can sleep on the train like a log and can miss my stop..no matter how noisy i wont wake up...thats how exhausted i am..how i wish i am a rich girl or at least i was born rich...i dont have the luxury and i dont even want to be born rich cause i wont know the meaning of hard work ..

2009-03-02T11:31:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was such a happy day..

as some of u know, my parents still have not allowed me to ride on his bike and coincidentally his parents too don want me on his bike..for safety reasons..his mother is like so protective of me..i have no idea why..

so he came to wdlds and park his bike at my blok and we took public transport to j.e and bus to suntec...hehe..we talk a lot since its been long since we met..talk abt everything under the sun..and when we finally settled down with the decision to eat at bugis after like half an hour arguing whether to eat or watch movie..heh..finally he gave in and we ate cause i was so damn hungry and he had to feed me la dei..so i told him we would watch a movie on our 1st year anniversary..then he agreed after coaxing him a bit..

then it started to rain and our plan to shop at bugis was cancelled so we took the bus and went to vivocity to pg one and see whether his motor culture magazine arrive or not..he was disappointed that there wasn't any mag there..and i started to feel hungry again after less than two hours and he started to nag..what to do..i am hungr always..hehe

then we finally went home after being out for six hrs and i was so touch that in the bus he woke up from his sleep and hugged me so tightly when he felt my hand was as cold as ice...he sheltered me from the coldness even tho he couldnt stand the cold..i was so deeply touch..

we walked home and yar..he still wasnt ready to meet my parents neither was my parents so we hang out under the void deck and i accompany him to "panaskan" his bike and waited till after the maghrib hours before he set off home..

i still miss him and i love him so much..hehe..and i am working today till thurs and will be gg out on friday and sat and i am so flat out bushed...hehe
okkk gotta go..bye...

2009-02-25T12:21:00.002+08:00

okay ladies and gentlemen..proper updates..hehe

holidays are over and i am working..thanks abang for letting me work..hehe..i have been very horrible to my boyfie for the past three weeks because i had no time for him and i pushed him away just to focus on my exams..and now its over and i still am horrible to him. boyfie has been patient with me ever since we started our relationship and i feel so guilty..im sorry syg..i promise i will mend my ways..just give me time..and thank u again for letting me work..hehe..i appreciate it and i know you are having a hard time..but i hope we can get thru this together..okay..

work has been tiring as usual..my daddy have been kind enough to fetch me at khatib even tho he is tired after a day at work..but he still fetch me like im still a lil kid..but i always tell him that i can go back myself if he is tired..if he fetch me i will reach home ard 1015 but if he doesnt i will reach home ard 1030 or 1040 if the bus is late la..hehe..

and i cant wait to go out with my ladies..i really hope we can go out together..hehe..mss you guys..

and ISN..im coming..hope a lot of ppl can make it to the picnic and now its time for us to catch up with each other and how our lives has beeen for us..and i really miss all of u..cant wait to meet u guys..7 march..rmbr the date and hopefully i dont need to work..i will cancel my work on that day if possible..hhee..

170309 - my first year anniversary with him...hehe...i love u always dear..

and if im not wrong, cassandra tia shufen and ashraf birthday falls on the 17march too..haha..

okie gotta go and rest..gg to work later..hehe..don miss me..*winks*...be updating maybe a mth from noww..hehe..kidding la..

2009-02-24T11:08:00.002+08:00

Exams are over...and im back to working now..omg ...i realise that i have not been resting enough..and yarh i am super duper tired..

hehe..cant wait for next month tho..our 1st year together...hmm...i have bought him the pressie already..just a bit of extra things that needs to be done..and i am getting sick day by day...hehe..

i miss all my friends already..:( so sad..hoope next year we will still be togh=ether..like huimin says..i oso don wanna make new friends..hehe..

2009-01-24T14:03:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BDAE TO ME!!!

Yesterday was my 21st bdae!! Gosh..i cant believe that i am fully an adult now but still behave like a kid..man how i need to grow up fast..but no matter what im still young at heart..hees..

My poly mates were all sweethearts. They suprised me during POM and i was like pleasantly suprised..paiseh but im totally happy..hehe..thx for everything..

thx to sze min, yitling, cass, huimin and mich...hehe..Love all of ya...

the pix...

hehe...thx also to all the bdae wishes, sms and msg from friendster and u guys are very much appreciated!!!!

Happy bdae to:

Fairus(lib) - 1 jan

Nurul Asyikin - 7 jan

suhaida(lib) - 16 jan

Rina -18 jan

Taufik - 18 jan

faizal(lib) - 22 jan

Normala(lib) - 23 jan

and those january babies tt i cant rmbr the dates but i rmbr u..hheee..Enjoys!!!

2009-01-13T19:34:00.002+08:00

Tagged by: Adecky Aishah

Q:If you had 3 wishes, what will that?

settle down n have a family with him
my family to be happy n healthy always
peace in the world

Q:Have u ever think of negative things abt the person u love but in the end it turn out to be the other way round?

yup..no need to elaborate..hehe

QAre u afraid of what lies ahead of u?

as a matter of fact, yes...im afraid that all the plans i make for my near future will nt materialize

Q:Would u change for the person u love?

Yes..if i wanna have a happy and blissful r/ship with him..why nt..

Q:Do u believe in love?

yerp..to each his own

Q:How long do u intend to wait for the person u really love?

for as long as he still wants me and willing to build a life and future with me sincerely

Q:If the person u secretly liked is already attached, wat would u do?

hmm..wat am i suppose to do..cry..nah..i rather focus my energy on something else.

Q:Is there anything tt made unhappy these days, y?

hmm..yes..abt him n myself..

Q:Do u get butterflies in ur stomach whenever u are ard a girl/guy u liked?

hmm after 10 mths..i still do get the feeling...hehhe

Q:Have u nt ever been able to get someone out of ur head?

yup...him..him n him

Q:Who are currently the most impt ppl to u?

my family, him and ma besties..u noe who u are..no meetups but i still think of u guys..

Q: Have u ever wanted someone but knew u couldnt have?

yup...for 4 yrs bt i know i cant ..

Q:Are u happy with ur life?

for now yes..im contented to have my life as it is nw

Q:Wud u give ur all in a r/ship?

of course..if both of us love each other so much..we are at the age tt we think of our future n act maturely...

Q: Wat type of friends do u like?

hmm..anyone who i feel is pleasant to my eyes and ears..

Q: Do u often wish there was something tt u could change?

yes..i wish the world wont be so violent..it only hurts ua and ppl u love..why nt embrace ppl ard u n nt discriminate...

Q:wat will u look at first when u set eyes on a guy/girl?

his smile n his sincererity..the others can wait...

Q:if u lover betray u, wat will be u reaction?

hmm..it depends on wat situation..but i will ask for an honest explanation ..if im happy with it then byebye..hehe

2008-12-31T20:28:00.002+08:00

im so damn pissed off la..haiz..he gets on my nerves every single sec on the phone..after listening to his stories and all..he ask me hows my day and when i tok he just kept quiet and at last i realise that he had fallen asleep and when i kept toking like a stupid big fool....what a waste of time talking to the and wall..next time dont ask me to call u if u are very tired..

its not the first time ok...hmmph..i just slammed down the phone and till now he did nt even get back to me..haiz..i guess he is tired but cant he tell me...im a big fool..

and yarh,,izzat's son is so cute la..hahah

2008-12-24T20:46:00.004+08:00

Haiz..believe it or not life hasnt been easy on me these few days...

aku tk habis2 menangis...dan bile aku nangis these couple of days, its the worst..nasib aku nangis over the phone. lau tidak malu aku..sehingga aku tak boleh pon nak bernafas..haiz.ntah kenape aku byk fikiran..semenjak dier join abg2 sedarenye racing team, aku sentiasa sedih..dier sanggup ketepikan aku just for them..i know at times i have to give him freedom.its the only thing that made him happy..tapi aku tetap rase diketepikan..and ever since the beritahu aku yg ex dier mula contact dier balik, aku sentiase fikirkan dan sangkakan yg buruk tentang dier..and yesterday, finally i told him all that ive been thinking abt since he was pestering me like a mosquitoe and he threaten to come to my house to force me totell him my problems..aku bkn tk nk bilang..cuma aku tk nk bebankan dier dgn masalah aku yg tk seberape..i know dier risau kan aku sebab i have been feeling emotional for days and been crying for days..and he knows that when im having my menses i will begin my siren..haha..lepas aku luahkan segale2, dier mengeluh je..aku serba salah sebab dier kene fikirkan tentang aku walaupon dier ade masalah sendiri..and dier tk pernah abaikanku selame 9bulan kita bersama..

ive been thinking alot and what he say to me was so right even though it hurts me..he didnt say it directly tapi i know wat he meant..lina u really need to grow up and i gues thats the realistic azam tahun baru yg sepatutnye kukecapi akhir tahun 2009ape yg dier katekan padaku really somehow enlgihten me..dier bukan lah budak baik but he have seen the world before me and not jsut because of the our age but also he experiences life much more than me..and i trust him so much..

after the three hour call, i sat down and thougt abt us..selame 9 bulan, i have done nothing to understand him..i felt so bad...and he nvr brought that up no matter how much i irritate him..and yesterday he ask me how much did i learnt from him since knowing him?..and i was stunned..i realised i havent been a gd girlfriend to him..and i didnt know him like he knows me..haiz...what a letdown i am..i tot abt us...as in five yrs down the road...and i need him by my side..one day nt seeing him is like 1 mth..and i always think abt him w/o fail..

abang,

i minta maaf byk2 sebab bagi abg kerenah i tiap2 waktu. not did u nt scold me, but u have been patient with me..tk pernah abg marahi i selame kite kenal. walaupon abg marah, abg cuma diam jer.abg tahu semue tentang i..abg perhatikan gerak geri i..abg know when i will be angry, sad disappointed..every expression of mine changes and u know it..and i know its difficult for u to apologise to ppl even tho u r in the wrong.but u tetap minta maaf dgn i walaupon im in the wrong..i terlalu terharu..thank u syg..i promise i change for the better...u change me to become a better person during these 9 months and i hope i will change for the better not just for myself but for us too...

2008-12-17T13:11:00.003+08:00

Helo ladies and gentlemen...

it has been a long time since i really posted an entry which is not random..To those who are wondering ehre i have disappeared to..hi..im still here..hehhe..i guess thats so random too..

ok lina please dont sidetracked..hello guys the same old lame me as usual ...

meeting my lovely friends on thursday..hope the plan materialized..i miss them..

been working again..and i am so tired..i realised i have nt lost my touch in shelving books..a bit slow but picking up pace now..and its so boring working on weekdays cause theres like nothng to do..ppl say that i am crazy...but what the hell when i finish shelving books..i will be like..huh??thats all..hehe..i should be thankful right..now i know that my favourite timeslot will still be on weeends whereby there will be like five layers of books to be shelve at one go plus the bookdrops..now i just have three layers if nt busy and five if busy..ouhhh..i like busy days..and i love business section..as if i haven't had enough of business in my skool life..

okie...my life hasnt been the same ever since the incident when i almost fainted on th train like a yr ago..my health has nt been great and certainly i keep getting sick..im tired ..even if i feel like sleeping, i ccan't get a good night sleep..wonder why??? hmm..i keep getting dizzy spells...and once i ever woke up seeing everything in red..wonder whats happening to me..and whenever i sleep i have difficulty in breathing..am i fat..no im nt...i guess im nt fit...haiz..

can my troubles just go away..??
i wanna meet himm....i miss himm.the last time i saw him was last sunday for only an hour before he sent me to work...:( so pitiful...i just wanna stay in his arms and nvr go away from him..i feel save when he hugged me and all my torubles seem to fly awa..haiz..i wish time will stand still at tat moment...

im so stressed abt my skool ..haiz..when izzitt gonna end..can i just get married and stay home..dream on Lina..life aint gonna be that easy..

2008-12-15T10:12:00.002+08:00

Finally the two weeks break are here...dates with daya on thursday..

And will be working like the whole week...5-9 everday..so tired..sometimes i can just sleep on the train and not wake up till at amk since alot of ppl alighting and very noisy..and yar i hate taking trains with all the foreigner men staring at ppl like they nvr see before..so jakon...

i am so happy because of few things..firstly abg call me on friday or saturday night(when i was like dozing off already) just to tell me that his former employer begged him to come back to work after less than a month firing him and promising to pay abg like 1100 ..but abg play hard to get and ask for 1200 and his former employer say ok but maybe after a few months la..hehe..and i was the first person he told instead of his lovely mak...but its too late dear..i will still continue working k..and u are nt allow to stop me..

Secondly the break is here..and even though i cannot enjoy due to work+ projects+assignments+revision, i will still try to enjoy it..hehe...

thirdly, meeting with daya..and sukhjeet..i wont forget u ...hehehe...cannot wait till then..hehe

otey now i gotta go..hehehe

2008-12-09T18:03:00.003+08:00

Random update..

im back to working life an di simply lurve it..even tho its tiring and i have lesser time to spend with abg..so sorry dear...bear with it k...things are going to get better..

ok..firstly whats up with my classmates..pls lah..dont bullshit abt other ppl ok..try to make urself a better person before even trying to make or teach other ppl to become a better person can..cause u guys just behave like lil kids even tho u guys are big enough to think for urself..so what if u are rich??? the only thing i know is ur parents are rich and c'mon..earn ur own living to understand other ppl's pain..and try to SHUT UP cause i personally dont like ur voice..i know u arsehole with no dick talk behind my back and im still waiting for u to apologise..no sorry till now..and if i ever hear one single thing that u bitch behind my back u will see the worst of me...k..and i so mean it with my heart and soul...if u are reading this blog pls grow up..and live ur own life cause next time when u die, u will leave this world alone ...

2008-11-29T21:11:00.003+08:00

im so tired going to and fro from hospital that i have to sleep very late at nite to study POA only to wake up so early to go hospital..
i just want to cry seeing kakak in that state ..how i wish i could replace her and suffer all the pain she suffers ..haiz..i can tell she dread the hospital alot..but what to do..hopefully she can be discharge tmr..after which me and my younger sis will take turn to take care of her ..i will have to move rooms la..so tired..haiz..

sis ..be brave k..you can do it..we are here for u..miss u so much..

2008-11-19T19:21:00.002+08:00

Why must life be so complicated???

I pity him a lot for enduring the pain for 8 years since he was 14... whenever i think of the plight of his family, i feel sad..theres not much i can do for him except give him the support he needs. just now i skip half of the marketing lecture to listen to his problems..he sounds so sad and i know he is about to give up on his life and most importantly his family..his good for nothing father..how i wish i can strangle his father for not even doing his duty..i want to cry..but i know this situation is hurting him more than its hurting me..haiz...

dear...
i know that u are sick and tired of living ur life as it is..but u cannot give up ..this is a difficult phase of life for u..and u have to try to get out of it ..take ur time and i will be there supporting u all the way.. i know u envy those spoilt kids whose parents are damn rich and can buy them anything they want and the kids who get pampered by their parents..i know u don have the luxury of feeling that cause u had to give up ur studies for ur brothers sake and work for them at the early age of 14..thats what makes my abg so mature and im so proud of u...but ur brothers are old enough to take care of themselves..let them be independent and don spoonfeed them inlife cause they will not know the feeling of hardship till they go through it themselves..just work for mak and let them handle their lives themselves..u have not enjoy a single time of ur life..have been working arond the clock for ur family..i know u r tired and its time for u to let them go and ask them to walk by themselves ..u cant be leading them by the nose throughout their lives right...

2008-11-13T22:28:00.002+08:00

Fcuk myself!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am so damn tired...haiz...can i just sleep and maybe nvr wake up........................
i will nvr let myslef live it down............i screw up for my test.........did nt do well for sure and yearh.....i might fai for all u know...my luck so damn suay lor...nt my day today and suprise surprise like durh ...imeanit sarcasticly, i had to be given the hardest paper out of the 3 and the clever ones who are gd in english gets the easier paper..damn my self....fcuk my own luck...

bf say everything happens for a reason...ur luck will cmoem one day..when izzit ginna come..50 yrs later when i cant enjoy life anymore..pls la..sometimes i studied so hard..i can fail..i told myself nt to give up but theres a limit for one to tolerate all this..im gg to very well have a breakdowm soon..its nt like i don study or i mean malice to anybody but why must i be the one to get all these shit!!!..fine if my luckks gonna change in 50 yrs..so be it..im tired to even think i feel like i wanna give up soon..the word give up makes me thik of my parents..haiz..its only because of them that im still tolerating everyhting......

HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-11-09T11:59:00.003+08:00

Hey...Yesterday was supposed to be an eventful day for me..i had planne to do a lot of things together with him..but unfortunately the circumstances did not allow my plans to go as planned...Sadly, when i met him at jurong he was damn mad at me for something but i did not have an idea why he was mad at me..:(

We boarded the bus to go vivo and we did nt talk and suddenly he alighted at his house busstop to meet his brother and he did ask me to go down with him but he was very insincere..i was hurt and he just went away without looking back..and he left me alone in the bus..i cried all the way back to jurong until i was tired..and ppl look at me in the bus coz i cried like nobody business..took the train back to wdlds..and went to the photo shop to print pictures alone and went to civic to deposit money when he msgg me and ask me where i am..while waiting for him to come to wdld i lepak at lbrary..suddenly i miss the ambience of the library..the silence and the smell of books..i totally miss it...then he came wdld and we sat outside civic and talk abt us and i cried while talking to him..and he cried too..cause he felt guilty leaving me and he was worried abt me that he almost took urgent leave from his night job to search for me...

sayang..just wanna tell u that i was never angry with u for leaving me alone. i was merely sad..did nt expect abg to do that..but i want tosay thank you for coming back to me sayang..love u so much..and the end of the story is our relationship is still standing strong ...

and now i wanna do my marketing project..shucks alot..i haven start doing it..

2008-10-31T22:14:00.002+08:00

Im so tired..terribly tired la...
Sometimes i just feel like giving up and forgoing my studies and just find a job and get some income and spend the money and whatnot..tutorials suck but at least im putting extra effort to do my tutorials compared to last semester whereby i did my tutorials when i was studying for my exams..im tired cause i think too much..of what? u might ask..and i will say i have no idea..
Everytime i go to sleep i will think about the things that i need to do and complete..whether i can do it and complete it or not and worrying about my family, him and my studies..sometimes to the extent i don even realise whether i had my sleep..i might go to sleep thinking about it and i might wake up from my sleep still thinking about it...what is happening to me??? My life is in near shambles and i donno whats causing it ...haiz..i guess thats life..

btw..just now this three strangers got scolded by me..i mean u are still little kids ..secondary skool kids and u tok indirectly about me ..wht the fcuk..i cannot tolerate, i stood on my tracks and blasted them..i mean whats my fault..im in a hurry to get home and wht do u mean by saying loudly that im walking past himm.did he mean that the traffic light belongs to his father..go to hell la..it was not his day and it was definitely me..im not one who goes ard blasting strangers ..i mean i was feeling very hot cause of the weather, my laptop and bag was damn heavy and i was hungry and that guy just conveniently stepped on my very last nerve wheere i exlpoded and pity them they look like they wanna cry..haiz..see..moral of the story is don find fault with just anybody..i might look like those who keep quiet..but really u just donno when i will burst..this goes to everybody and anybody...

and im going to start onmy marketing project now..aiyo..im so tired of thinking..pls come new laptop..and yarh..guess what..i have receive the form HOTA for transplanting organ etc just because im turnign 21 in like january..omg..so scary..21 is like another phase to adulthood..i enmvy my friends who dont need to worry abt money and evrything..i need to scrimp and save from now on la..come on lina u can do it ...

2008-10-27T17:11:00.005+08:00

Helllooo!!!!

First and foremost to Eunice..Happy Bdae!!! Hope u enjoy ur bdae...apologies to you cause i couldnt attnd as there were last min plans...love ya...!!!

My timetable changed btw..fcuk!!! i hate gg to skool at 2 pm and coming back home at 6..wth!! and guess what...to add to my grumbles and whines this blog of my mine had a problem...i hate it..and im trying so hard to changed the formatting ...i think i am gg to put my html knowledge to good use bt as usuual im sooooo super lazy to even changed it even though i took a look at the problem. sad man...

the past week i have been throwing tantrums all over the place..at home, in skool even on the phone with my boyfriend..i can talk to him like usual and another moment i will be angry and another moment sad and then i will get emotional and cry. Whats up with me....haha..

then one day he was fed up with me and he raised his voice at me over the phone..haiya..that made me cry..then he met me on saturday and thats when he talk to me ..a heart to heart talk and me being me , i wasnt that easy a person to open up my feelings to somebody..then we sat and we talk..it helps la..pouring ur problems to somebody u trust..and just listen...

so fast..time pass so quickly and our relationship is going to be 8 mths soon..hehe..i love him..

abgiloveyoualot

2008-10-13T15:49:00.002+08:00

Above are the raye photos...hehe..i lazy to tok long2 abt raye la..just see from the pix and like quote says a picture tells a thousand words..

and yes today is a brand new day..went back to school and the lessons today are ok..i use to learn the old version of access and excel and that will be what i will be ;earning this term..have to brush up on my vlookup..hate that function..just hope when excel come i can do it..hehe

and also accounting..haiya..its alot more theory this term..accounting lecture was boring..i just cant sit down and listen to lectures like over and over again..but i know its mpt to listen during lectures..i learned my lesson last term and am not gg to repeat it any moment..

and yarh..guess how much i be spending on my books this sem..? just over 50 dollars..there fly away the money..:( and yeahim not gg to buy any textbk anymore if there are any to be bought..

tmr go back at 4 be meeting him and again meeting him on wednesday after school..tmr is just a short meeting la..im tired la..haiz..

be back to update..cant promise when..pray that i have the mood to update..maybe a proper one..yeah..goodbye and have a nice day.!!!

2008-09-26T14:17:00.007+08:00

harlow guys...yesterday i met my beloved sistas...wawa and wanie with our respective partners..and firstly im so happy to see them so happy and in love..i miss them so much lar..hope there'll be alot of gatherings soon..cause i miss u guys..

hydar and wawa went to reserve a place first at cck the mkn place for our buke-ing yesterday since they have their bikes..so they came early..while me and wanie and our bf met at the mrt st..hehe..miss them so much lar..

and yesterday was very fun cause at last we interview each others partners and hey i hope u all restui perhubunganku bersama abg munir ya..hehe..love u guys so muchie..

then we catch up with each other while the boyfriends talk guys stuff while huffing and puffing their stupid cigarettes..the three of us camwhore and listen to each others stories..

hehe..catch up soon k dearies..

thanks wawa for the pictures..hehe

2008-09-20T21:24:00.003+08:00

today was a tiring day..did the living room's spring cleaning but only halfway...
the other half maybe i do tmr or the days im free ..then we bake the pineapple tarts today and gonna continue making somemore tmr..chocolate chips tmr..hmm..hehe...hmm...and sis boyfie came over to drill the holes on the wall for my batik frame which cost like 200++..i paid half and the other half mama pay..but i tell your that if mimi's batik piece she will surely sponsor 100%..i guess..most probably cause the youngest is always the most pampered one and somemore she's like the cleverest one..then sis boyfie break fast at our house...while i talk to my boyfie on the phone..he's so stressed out financially and still he wants to save to buy me a laptop. i said just forget abt the laptop cause im not in a desperate need for it. then he says that he doesnt want my parents to buy me a laptop as they will also need to buy mimi a latop so it will strained my parents financially.i said if like that then its ok..just forget abt getting a laptop la..its not like i want it so much..haiz..boyfie really takes care of me..he doesnt want me to work then he pays my bills for me ..i feel so bad..then he was damn pissed off with his bike..something abt the spare parts of his bike...he uttered al the vulgarities that he could think of and even i was taken aback. I gues iots like that ... i really am scared to see him angry..sometimes when he is very angry he would vent it on me..i don mind la..but when he is jst pissed off over some trivial matters he will not do anytthing//normally he will just keep quiet..and thats wat he did tome over the phone..he was very2 quiet even tho a bit sarcastic..

i just love u so much...

2008-09-11T11:14:00.003+08:00

I know i have not been updating..Well..i am very the lazy..haha..

Anyways, last sunday, my family and i went to SGH to visit mama's friend who was involve in an accident at johor..Pity her...A lot of ailment for her.. she was finally concious from hours of coma..
Oh ..and ya..we avoided an accident ourselves..this stupid cab lah..almost knocked into our car..thank goodness baba manage to swerve jerkily to the right lane then back to the center lane..baba was damn furious lor..and i was so close to the cab that i could see whats inside it..damn lar..if kena sure me and mama kena first cause we were nearest to the left side..haiz..

then after that we went and walked around queensway for a while...just to lepak2 before going to Adam's Rd to buke our puasa...then while waiting i sms dear then he and his laling (his guy friend whom he called laling) haha..he and his laling also want to buke puasa there..i told him don la cos i was like not wearing makeup and all..then he say its ok..haha..then 5 min to buke i saw him..now baba knows already..alahai..so hmm my parents have an idea that he is my guy lor..but i just kept quiet..haha..kakak sabo me somemore cause my munir use to be her friend and when they were pri 4, my dad used to scold him..now life turn full circle..dier boleh tersangkut dgn aku..haha...padan muke..its fate i guess..hehe

2008-08-29T20:25:00.002+08:00

Hi...im back..but still im not updating about my life ..hehe...lazy la..just know that im tired ...hehe. i would rather talk about things in general.

This post or entry is for the couples who are married or couples who intend to be married..or just couples la..anything la..hehe..here goes.. i read a boook ages ago and found this paragraph to be quite meaningful..

CINTA TIDAK SEMESTINYA BERAKHIR DENGAN PERKAHWINAN DAN PERKAHWINAN JUGA TIDAK SEMESTINYA MENOKTAHKAN TITIK AKHIR KEPADA PERCINTAAN. KESETIAAN AKAN MENGIKAT CINTA; KECURANGAN AKAN MERANAPKAN SEGAL KEMANISAN CINTA. SESEBUAH PERKAHWINAN AKAN MENJADI INDAH JIKA CINTA TERUS BERSAMA. SATU-SATUNYA CARA AGAR KITA MEMPEROLEH KASIH SAYANG IALAH JANGAN MENUNTUT AGAR KITA DICINTAI, SEBALIKNYA MULAILAH MEMBERI KASIH SAYANG KEPADA ORANG LAIN TANPA MENGHARAPKAN BALASAN.

Translation:

LOVE DOESNT MEAN THAT IT HAS TO END WITH MARRIAGE AND MARRIAGE DOES NOT MEAN PUTTING AN END TO LOVE. LOYALTY IS WHAT TIES YOU TO LOVE. BUT INFIDELITY IS WHAT SHATTERS ALL THE SWEETNESS YOU FEEL IN LOVE. A MARRIAGE WILL BE LOVELY AND BEAUTIFUL IF LOVE IS ALWAYS PRESENT. ONE WAY TO OBTAIN LOVE AND AFFECTION IS NOT TO DEMAND TO BE LOVED. HOWEVER, START TO GIVE LOVE AND AFFECTION TO OTHERS WITHOUT HOPING FOR REQUITAL.

My opinion about this is i sort of agree with it generally. So i hope i have shared whatever i think is true. to each his own like the saying goes....

2008-08-27T18:53:00.006+08:00

I just wanna share two poems that i have written during my ITE days..
I chanced upon them while i was cleaning my bookcase and i found them ignored among the many books there. So i hope u just read and enjoy cause it tells the story and feelings of how i once felt pining for somebody that doesnt even know that i used to have feelings for him However im sorry for the inconvenience as the 2 poems are written in malay..No discrimination to my other friends of different race.

Rindu

Biarkan ku sendiri dalam kegelapan

Apakah lagi dalam ketenangan

Aku sering tertanya-tanya akan penantian

Yang sudah kuanggap akn berakhir dengan kenangan

Dalam diam ku bersedih

Perasaan pilu, benci, sayu dan kasih

Ada juga rasa sendu

Dalam diam ku juga merindu

Tetapi rindu yang cuma disia-siakan

Apa lagi hendak kukatakan

RINDU, tetap wujud, tetap ada

Tetapi hanya tinggal sisa-sisa

Akanku lupakan segala rintihanku

Dan mulakan perjalanan baru untuk hidupku

Akan kulontarkan senyumanku

Demi kebahagiaan yang selalu kualu-alu

Memori

Dalam gelap aku menderita

Ketika terang aku bergembira

Detik bersamamu telah pun sudah

Hanya tinggal hati yg berbisa

MEMORI kami telah ku buang

Ke sudut dimana memori hanya tinggal kenangan

Akanku keluarkannya bila mahu dikenang

Dan akanku simpan bila telah dapat ketenangan

Okie...to those who don understand its ok...but to those who have an idea of what im referring to...just keep it to urself la..

Anyways these are written when im still unattached and now, to me everything is in the past. I have tried my best to forget him and yes i cant get him out of my mind completely. Thus in the 2nd poem, the memories will be out when i want to reminisce and i will keep when im done. Cause to me everyone has a past. It doesnt mean that i have to get rid of my past and memories to get new ones. Memories will always be yours and nobody can take it from you not unless u have amnesia or senile dementia or something like that. Haha.

To my friends who are worried about me, im fine and i am happy with my relationship at the moment. so just pray for me and im gonna be ok.

2008-08-27T18:30:00.001+08:00

Hi!

Im back with a new blogskin and i hope i be updating often..hehehe

2008-08-26T12:47:00.003+08:00

UNDER CONSTRUCTION!!!!

BE PATIENT.....HEHEEEE.....

2008-08-04T18:47:00.002+08:00

Welcome back!!!

hehe...tmr his payday...hehe..he promise me to pay my phone bill...but i told him nt to la..cause i feel bad taking his money..he said mymoneyisyourmoney k...so sweet..i told him to give mak her allowance and daily money for groceries and everything for her to spend..then settle his bike repairment money first.. almost 500 bucks..haiz...then tmr his babyboi kawasaki is gg to emerge out from the garage and he is going to ride again..haiz..making me worried again..today he is gg to ride his babygerl 1300cc suzuki to wdlds to familiarise his way on wdld road..he say he gt phobia ever since accident at wdlds..i feel so bad..i really forbid him to come here lor..anyway miss dear so much 1 and a half day w/o msging him or calling him(his prepaid low mah). haiz..

after sharept project i am free to study!!! exams start on 15..i have to concentrate this time..i wouldnt want to fail my modules..

then i donno wat to do after exams..fasting then rot at home..no income..i want to find a job during sat and sun..but dear forbid me..saying that i gt 2 choices..schoolnowork..worknoschool...wth!!!..then i say i need money la..gonggong..hehe..bengap banget...hehe...
august so busy...exams ..cousin's wedding..btt...haiya..i like wanna give up already..but bcause of mama i don want to give up..she really want one of us to have license lor..haiz..see first la..nt confident la...

2008-07-31T21:02:00.002+08:00

So...whats up with hypocrites nowadays...??

As usual hypocrites wont have the guts to talk to u right smack in the face and tell u something..i hate hypocrites..everybody is hypocrite.like i am now talking abt u behind my back..but next time choose the right person to talk bad abt behind me k..
You will one day get it from me..don let me snap cause it be the end of your peaceful days..cause everybody who knows me know that once i officially declare to have awar with someone..that someone will perish with me emotionally and physically so if u are tired and exhausted as it is i can see u are then dont ask for a war..

i really tone done a lot compare to my verbal abuse and physical abuse of objects..i don want to be the old lina - bad tempered, short temper and don care abt people feeling...

u dont really know the real me for now and FYI!!! i don even want to give u a chance to know me cause i don think u are worth it to be my friend..U SUCK BIG TIME...so find a way to fcuk ur own ass...cause one day i will direct that phrase to u and hope u can show me how..

i am really so damn angry and if nt for suki , i will be confronting u already..so thank her...next time want to bitch abt me, come to me..i will smile and let u bitch abt me and after that i will say this.."are u finish??" then say bye2 cause i wont stoop down to ur level and bitch abt u..im already pass ur age and i went thru much more then u..so if u don want the chair to be thrown at u, then don incur my wrath..

DEDICATED TO ALL WHO ARE BITCHING ABT ME BEHIND MY BACK..i will really throw something if i cant keep my temper in check..then that will be the time people will say WELCOME BACK AMALINA..

2008-07-28T14:04:00.004+08:00

Haiya...

I am really contemplating on not using blogger anymore lor.. firstly..im busy and there's no time for me to update..even if im free im lazy to update as im very shagged. so i will naturally keep the log as updated as possible till sep then i decide..

after 17 august, im going to be out of job..im really in need of a part time job right now. so anybody got lobang to recommend me pls do k..cause i need my income ...PLS!!

my school projects is neverending and august is going to be very busy ...as im having my exams..still have nt start studying cause i gt 2 more projects on hand and after this week im left with only one..i just have to bear with 3 more weeks and im gg to be fine..NOT..yarh..the exams..almost forget abt it or..see..i really got no life at all..none..zilch...stupid la..

even dear is frustrated with my neverending projects...haiya...tired la..im super2 tired from the neverending journey to schoool and also ttired from using my brains..my brains need a rest .. i feel like it is going to explode..

and i think i have to separate myself frm the number im using now..IM SUPER DUPER SAD....!!
im trying so hard to conyrol my bills right now..but to no avail..so i have decided to terminate my line and use prepaid..no life again..haiz...but if i can get a new part time job by starting of september then i will not need to separate myself from my number ...cause it has sentimental value..dear say im so emotionally attach to this number..that when i told him abt terminating my number..he laughed cause he say my face look like im gg to cry..ckp aku giler..hmmph...i have used that number since sec 1 and i don wanna part with it..

see why my brain is exploding..think abt projects, exams, my life, the bills...omg..the bill still haven come lor..and can get heart attack waiting for it..if my mom sees the bill she is gg to spit fire....and im dead..HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and YUSOf must help me and sukh study...very tired of thinking already..seriously econs sucks to the max..i don understand how u can love that module k sof.. stupid..econs is the first module i fail since my o levels maths and humanities..fail since 2 years..

ok GOTTa go...bye!!!

2008-07-14T11:52:00.002+08:00

Hallo!!!

im back..im now at the north wing library doing my project.. been here since 10.15..and my laptop is dying cause of low batt....

met dear on saturday and watch Hancock...its quite a nice movie la..but he keeps talking and talking and i cant concentrate la..and fortunately i wasn't working. hehe..he was happy that i could spend time with him la..my chicken pox is disappearing and i am recovering well. now dear is sick with flu, fever, sore throat. he promise to cut down on his smoking since he doesnt want to go doctor..stubborn him.. hehe..after the movie, we walk from plaza sing all the way to sungei road..tiring leh..he deliberately wants me or rather us to walk cause my two weeks at home, ive been gaining weight. hmmph..then we went to his friend's bike shop and he chat with them..a lot of mat motors sey...hehe..then we walk all the way to bugis cause i want to eat KFC..but it was full so we went to harbour front and i ate nasi gorng kampong but i cannot finish la cause i was full..then he scolded me..then dear finish the food for me..so sweet kan..then its time for me to go home and we took bus home to wdlds. so damn tired la..i reach home ard 10..then he went back to suntec for his night job...i pity him la cause he so tired....then dear was so sick..he just doesnt listen to me..:(

ok..thats all gtg..hehe...i will be working again starting next week onwards..i hope i can manage my time to study for my exams la..i just hope that i get pass my first yr...

2008-06-29T19:10:00.003+08:00

GUESS WHAT!!!????

MY LIFE CANNOT BE MORE ROTTEN THAN THIS...

I HAVE CHICKEN POX...YARH..LIFE SUX....

ANYWAY..WHY DOES IT HAVE TO COME AT THIS TIME WHEN I AM HAVING THE BUSIEST TIME OF MY LIFE WITH A LOT OF TESTS AND PROJECTS AND WHEN MY RELATIONSHIP WITH BOYFIE IS GG ON WELL THIS THING HAVE TO COME..

I HAVE BEEN STRESS WITH EVERYTHING THAT IS GG TO COME IN MY WAY..I HAVE BEEN THINKING OF ALTERNATIVE SOLUTIONS AS TO HOW TO SETTLE MY THINGS AND AT THE SAME TIME WORRYING ABOUT MY STUPID DAMN FACE THAT IS HAPPILY HAVING AN OUTBREAK...

I AM SO SO SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO TIRED..AFTER SETTLING ONE THING COMES ANOTHER..AINT I RIGHT TO SAY THAT MY LUCK IS NOT WITH ME AND I AM HAVING A HARD TIME ADJUSTING TO THIS.

A LIST OF THINGS THAT I PLANNED TO DO...

28 GO OUT TO RIN'S SISTER WEDDING WITH WANIE..CANCELLED
28 GO OUT WITH BOYFIE WATCH NDP REHEARSAL...CANCELLED
29 WORK ...CANCELLED
30 BASIC THEORY TEST... IAM GG I DONT CARE..I PAID ALREADY..
1 SHOW N TELL N POM PROJECT
3 ORAL ICA
4 HTML ICA
SUBSEQUENT WEEK...THERES STATS ICA....

HOW AM I GG TO SETTLE ALL THIS....???!!!

IM SO SORRY IF MY CHICKEN POX BRINGS TROUBLE TO MY FRIENDS AND MY GRP MATES..SORRY YITLING...SORRY FARA, EZZA, JOEL, RIZWAN, NICHOLAS..

I WILL TRY TO FIND A SOLUTION TO THIS..I CAN STILL MEET U GUYS FOR PROJECT IF U DON MIND HOW I LOOK AND IF YOU GUYS DON MIND THAT I MIGHT SPREAD THIS TO YOU..

THANKS AH WEICHUAN..I THINK I GT THIS FROM U LA SINCE U ARE THE ONLY CHICKEN POX PERSON I MADE CONTACT WITH..

but don worry..as usual i am a strong girl like boyfie says i am..i can handle it and i will try my best to handle...

ANYTHING MORE TO GIVE ME DURING THIS SHIT HELL OF A TIME THAT I AM HAVING..BRING IT ON..

i know i sound so petty like i am blaming GOD for everything that is happening to me..but yah its happening cause HE wants it to and i will gladly take it..take all the sorrows he is giving me the obstacles that he is giving me cause i know that something good will happen..after this..i believe in this i have faith in him..but i am nt a robot..im human and i have feelings and i guess this is just what i deserved i think..im so tire to even think ..

...thank you goodbye and sorry...

2008-06-15T21:38:00.003+08:00

Haiya....

need to change my skin soon..haha..LIna is forever a lazy bum...

my holidays are very tiring..have been gg out since forever..

Sorry ah entry is in malay..tired la to type in english..

....penat la.... mane nak fikir klua dgn kwn, family, keje..then keje skolah, keje rumah...then matair..

susah jugak eh kalau ader matair...hehe..honeymoon period pon da over...bagusla tu..belum over da byk tengkar..tapi dier tak suke marah..aku yg suke marah...cume aku rase skg nie aku da tone down sikit la perangai aku ..da tk marah2 selalu..tk sanggup punye pasal..hehe...

dates...

Wanie*nt confirm....
Daya*
Him*

somemore...no need la...im tired...v tired..nk klua pon da tk larat..

2008-06-11T11:48:00.005+08:00

its a very tiring week for me last week..helping with my my cousin's wedding..

on the fridaywent home late as we went to auntie house to help prepare for the solemnisation ceremony on saturday..went home ard 11 + i think..

then saturday had a very terrible and horrible stomachache..was out of the house by 730..woke up at 2 am cause i was in pain..the whole day i helped in carrying heavy things. boil the 1000 over eggs in a big pot..carrying it for my mom cause she cannot carry heavy things..was in front of the fire (gas stove) for almost the whole day..then help rebus pulut lagi..byk pulak tu..hehe

..plus the stomachache..cannot take it..plus problems with boyfie..haiz..my hips was like hanging lor..was so damn exhausted..kate rewang kan..went back at ard 11 oso..

sunday was ok ..went out of the house ard 7 am..then go cousins house and help with whatever things that needed help..it was nervewrecking for my abg sedare..hehe..gt a lot of mat motor somemore..perah byk2..very noisy sia when we were otw to the bride's house..hehe..but somehow me and my sisters stay out of giving the bunga telur thingy cause i feel that we were not right for the age la..so we let our younger cousins do it..pity them la cause they were so tired..hehe to them i just wanna say..don worry i understand how u feel cause i went through the same process too..hehe..and we spend the day babysitting..hehe..my nieces were very cute lor..and so hyperactive..

so sorry izzat for not gg to ur wedding k..hope it was a joyous occasion..waiting for wanie sewel to show me his pictures..buih ah wanie..balik holiday aku nk present..so sad..hehe..just joking lar..

2008-06-06T17:31:00.002+08:00

STATS is over ..yeah..

and yeah..i have to commetn on the younger kids nowadays...they walk so damn slow la..i mean the older ones is supposed to be slower ..right soo kiat??

you guys are so slow la..i swear thats the slowest me and yit ling walk and you guys cannot catch up with us..heheh..old people...hahahahah

ok..i just receive sms from syira saying that izzat 4A3 is getting married..this sunday..ask me to go but i really cannot sia..it clashes with my cousins wedding ... i am so freaking sad ..and i haven meet him in like a few yrs already..donno whether he rmbrs me.. i miss him la..since we have been friends since primary 3 and now we are not that close anymore..isnt it sad.. =(

just convey my regards and make sure he take care of his spouse well...hehe..next ..who is it going to be..not me for sure..ZARINAH..tgk lah izzat abu bakar da nk kahwin..bile lagi kau nye turn..hehe

kk...and i mis boyfie a lot...im suffering thinking about him and us ..only one week we never meet , a lot of miscommunication between us..i donno la..i just miss him so much..

"dear trust me k..i am not going to leave you unless u ask me to k ... so in other words u are not going to lose me..have faith in us and God...hopef ully we stay together till our last breath k baby.."

2008-06-04T20:34:00.002+08:00

Okay..finally all the tests are over yay!!!

hehe..ok i start the day badly lor..the train gt problem and i was rushing for my test. had no choice but ask hui min's dad to give us a lift to school then today is my crying day..and somemore spent 6 hours wasting our butt doing nothing ..wasting our time lor.

but had lunch with the half of the class at yck grassroot club..it was nice la..hehe..because i ws famish..but the service charge was uncalled for as i think the service they gave us was bullshit..hehe..apart from that hui mins lenses suddenly detached titself from the frame..walaueh..it was damn hilarious lor..

and guess what i was so sad abt something then suddenly..liabilities had to drop my phone accidentally and i cried..paiseh lor but it was mix feelings la..i wasnt angry with her or anything ..just sad la..hehe...

amd my and boyfie wont be meeting for one week..i miss him sooo much la..haha..cnt believe i would miss another guy like this..my past is history..now he is my present and i hope my future..

and how could he quit his job just because of me..damn him..think rationally la dear..just because his plans with me that day was thwarted by his boss as his boss wanted to interview him of his unwillingness to go attachment to dubai, he quit..then he said he did that because he loves me and his time with me is very precious..yes its sweet and touching but hello...think wisely la dear..haiya...

2008-05-26T13:24:00.002+08:00

I am so stressed!!!!!!!!!!

I have been working like hell for two days and i am so damn tired...there has been a ot in my mind...abt whether i have to change myself for the poly friends or just remain as i am..i guess i have to change cause i am somebody who gives in ..klah...i try to chnage myself..i hope for the better of everyone..

and i have been studying on the train when i go to work when i come home from work when i an walking to work and i feel like ite all over again..stdying plus working plus hhehe

anyway now i have a new commitment ..i have a fear of commitment la actually..i really have to commit to this cause he really is serious abt me..hehe..so paiseh la..and i guess me too..we confess alot during the 3 hrs talk we had on the phone and i feel like i want to be a better girlfriend to him..

i just hope he wont drink anymore and change for the better now that he found me.."syg, yg dulu tu dulu..skg lain..takmao bagi mak dan i risau cause we love u and dont drink anymore k..:

and i donno if he gt his liscense back, i just want to tell him tat if he is gonna ride his bike until 180km/h..i wont be the pillion..and if he rempit again , i myself will revoke his liscense nt the traffic police..dgr tau..pastu he can go puase la..hehe

and yarh..my bill is gg to explode and now that i am not working i am so dead la..but baby say he will pay and give me money ..i will jsut slap him and go away cause i dont accept money from peole right my friends..ieven if he is my bf or anything..

kk late meeting him at clementi..walaueh..v tired la..hehe

2008-05-21T22:11:00.003+08:00

ok...

just now was supposed to meet him at 4...but something held him up and we met at 5 instead..

pity him..after work he meet me..very tiring for him..but he still wants to meet me..

at causeway pt on the way to nokia to collect my hdp, i met hajar..so embarrased then at banquet , i finally met my long lost friends farra, fatin, and fareez..hehe..of all days met them today ..

anyway i had a great time with him and i will always want to sleep when i am in his arms..

hope we have many great years to come..and dont worry dear , u wont lose me unless u want me to leave u..

2008-05-20T16:49:00.002+08:00

Hmm...

I miss him already..hehe

ICAs coming..never ending next week and yeah..after that meeting with my love friends..wanie...
book a date with me..go shopping..
but for now study....

and yar..i never fail to blog this..

missing ISN alot la..hehe

2008-05-18T09:14:00.008+08:00

BBq with ISN was very fun tho i had to leave early..curfew set by him and my parents...the food was delicious..too bad i could not stay for the desert..and yarh..yusof is a spoilsport la..take pix with us oso don want..bluek..ok..the pic can be taken..hehe..for those who want..more of the gatherings okies..misses all of isn and uncle chua is good at bbq-ing prata..hehe..u know wat i mean..thanks eunice...

2008-05-10T12:29:00.003+08:00

ok...

i am super duper stress..it seems like next week is stuy week for me and sukhjeet but yet everything is gg to be spoil because of our make up lessons..i need the tuition really badly and i don care sukhjeet ...hehe...skool for me is a drag except for lectures...i am so lazy because of the journey to skool..if only i need not take the train..

and i tot i wanna go for the grad ceremony...but i will stick to my former decision la..stressed..
and i gt like 15/25 for my internet ICA 2...wth...but its considered ok la..since i nvr study tt hard..at least i passed..i need to pass all my individual ICA's la..to pull up my GPA..

and lastly..i tendered my resignation..as of june i am free and Wani..book a date with me le...hehe..miss all of u soo much..

heard there was gg to be a bbq on 16 may..and i want to go..any changes inform me k..

LICENSE !!! pls come to me...BTT on 30/6..care to join me anyone..hehe

2008-05-06T17:49:00.002+08:00

I donno what i am feeling right now... we lost contact for two yrs and now we are contacting again..i am so afraid of my feelings frankly..hmm..evrytime i want o move on i donno why my past keep running after me..i mean can God just make me forget my past..i want my present and future which is eluding me so much..i am so scared of the future..

frankly ... i want to move on but i am hesitant cause i want my past to catch up but i am on the lose2 situation right daya..i have feelings for him but i am afraid he will not cherished it like last time which really hurt me. i have feelongs for him but i cannot trust him yet with the vulnerable fragile feelings i have..

and while this is going on through my mind ..i am so stress abt the lessons tutorials and understanding the concept ..i feel that i am gg crazy soon and entering asylum soon ...somebody help me...i wanna cry out so loud..its really different in ite and in poly..i really wanna drop out but the only thing that i am staying ther eis because of my freidns and family who are always encouraging me..i am so sad ..i am not myself understand..hmm...

gathering soon ISN..miss you all so much..
and confirm i am not gg for the ceremony..its a clash with elsson..and i cant cope with it..sorry ASH and ISN!!!...

2008-04-25T12:11:00.002+08:00

hmm...

im now in skool...

so sorry for the lack of updates...hee...

i am a bit busy now with tutorials and all...

and as a all around laazy person, i can never go online...

hee..wat else..my friends and i are fighting over koufu and north canteen as usual..

have been eating koufu a lot since hanging out with cassandra and hui min...

kk..i go now..

P/s: i miss my ite friends...:(

2008-04-11T10:37:00.002+08:00

Finally i can update....

I got back my username..so i can start posting..sorry for the MIA...

As u all know..i gt back my disappointing ite results and ironically i got into Nanyang Poly...

I went for orientation on the 9 as stated on the enrolment package only to find out that it has been changed to 10 april..i was not happy thats why i called the school of business coz me and a cople of my friends apparently from ite were not inform of the changes.

i spoke to the admin person who ask me to call the assistant of whatever which i didnt get to know..i called this martin and demand an explaination..he apologise and ask us to come tmr. I had to ask for explaination wat..wasting my time for wat ..come so early ...

then yesterday sucks..i am like the second oldest..i think..i gt time table...a
thats why today i ,ia from shl..lazy ah..from 9 am to 7 pm..for wat..play games only..and my class are so not open minded and guess wat..they are so dead..not lively at all..i am gg work instead..hehe..at least gt income wat...:)

i am so half hearted la..to go skool...i miss isn v much..the kecohness...the liveliness...haiya..

kk..i will post another entry in like a few days time if i settle all the admin matters pertaining to my enrolment thingy..so leceh..

2008-02-18T08:14:00.002+08:00

Ok...updates!!!

On Friday, it was crunch time man...We had to do our duties for the preview of Chingay PArade of Dreams 2008. As i said, my grp was supposedly in charge of the ushering in the vip sector. and damn it. As soon as i enter the tentage i received news that my grp is out of that sector and had to go to sector 4 or 5. then just as we were warming up to the sector 4, we were thrown to do ticketing admission at sector 2 for vip ppl. it was fun once we get the hang of it..But the organization screwed big time la.dismiss us so late..i took the second last train home it was tiring la. but it was a good experience.

SAturday was much better lah. we did the same like on friday and i had fun and damn it la. me yusof sheila and sha and sukh, daya took the last train home. So damn tired and i reach home near 1 am. shit.. and i slept ard 2 am .

The next day i woke up at 945 just to eat breakfast then i slack before going to work at 315pm. haiya..so tired la. did business and icon with man and assyaari . came home yesterday ard 11pm.

2008-02-15T09:14:00.002+08:00

WEll..the busy week is not done yet...

Im like so stress over the things that i have to do..

Firstly, my AOA CA is done even tho i didnt study for it..i am relli slacking and this is going to be to my disadvantage..then im dead.
Secondly, my application to poly is already done ..now its in the hands of God and i really hope from the bottom of my heart that i can get to poly to take my diploma and get a better paying job.
Thirdly, i know who is my angel..i still cannot believe it la. Yusof is my angel..hummph...But i really tease him a lot la and its cool the way he did not even drop a hint that he is my angel till the last minute. haha.. well thats just yusof right.. oh yeah i hope my angelite like the prezzie..its not much but i hope u like it..ayu lavinge..hehe

And yeah..once again my angel help me recover my lost pix and docs from my computer..hehe..thanks to daya and him i can no longer lament over losing my pix..i will tease u less k..

And later im going for Chingay....aiyoh..i know i will reach home like near to midnight..im going to be so tired..It will go on to Sautrday..home late again and sunday i have to work again and go home late again..wheres the rest that i need...haiyah...tis yr my health record sucks la..
Hope everything goes well cause my grp is in charge of the vvip sector..

Well ..All the best to the other classmates too..!!!

2008-02-03T10:27:00.000+08:00

Otey..
updates..

On Thursday, i went to donate blood withh several other classmates..all in all 10 ppl went. i was apparently the last one to finish donating blood. hehe. i was feeling fine after that; no giddiness no pain at all. So after eating and drinking to replenish our blood, we went home. bad and i went home together. but just as we were approaching redhill or something, i feel very hot and nauseous. i ask bad whether she has water or not. then i turned to the side and when i turn back to bad, thats when i saw bad's face turning into a different colour. i knew i was blacking out. but i try to keep my eyes open. i was concious all the way. its just that i couldnt seem to talk. and yarh, singaporean guys just saucks cause they don help. then thefemales drag me to a seat and one makcik gave me a drink, i felt better, but just couldnt talk. so after that i realise that i was sweating profusely. hehe..after that bad was such an angel la.she accompanied me home and stayed with me till my sister came back. THANKS BAD..if not for u i wont know wat would happen to me...:-)

i still went to work tho. such a stubborn mule...and im working on sat and sun too..then skooling on mon. apparently i have no rest.

2008-01-30T17:10:00.000+08:00

Tidak kutahu di mana letaknya ketampanan wajahmu...

Entah di dalam poket baju kurungku

Atau di celah-celah sinar redup matamu

Tidak kuthau di mana letaknaya kemanisan hubungan ini

Entah di dalam coklat kekcang kegemaranku

Atau kelenbutan jiwamu tatkala menyapaku

Bagaimana kalau kita bersua lagi?

Bagaimana jika di waktu itu kau punya cinta hati?

Bagaimana lagi harus ku temui dirimu?

Antara jiwamu dan jiwaku jauh terpisah

Jauh...

2008-01-30T16:52:00.000+08:00

Hmm

i skipped the last 2 period of the day just to go for the dental appointment. U see, i have a phobia of going to the dentist. The phobia started since i was a small kid and i don know why. So mama accompany me. so embarrassed that a 20 yr old gurl need her parents to teman . i was so scared. so sthe dentist inject something on me then my jaw and tongue went numb. i shiver at one pt of a time that i tot i almost had fits. i was hallucinating la. but i was so scared the water that was in my mouth was gonna choke me. i kept breathing thru my nose. and was very tired of it.

then after like almost 45 minutes i came out and i was damn shock that i had to pay $119. OMG. my half months pay is burnt. i noe its a provate clinic but its so daylight robbery la. i wanted to go the polyclinic one but i have to wait for 3 to 4 months upon making appointment. my mum asked why so few dental service for poly, the bloody person says they wanna give good service. bullshit la. haiya..recession is comming i predict. in like few yrs to come.

kk..gotta go..my numbness is wearing off after like 2 hrs and i am starting to feel a bit of headache. and yes ghosthunters is on today..hehe

2008-01-24T13:54:00.000+08:00

Otey

Hmm..Peeps have been complaining that i don update..haha..its good that my computer crash when i was having my CA. and i didnt update after fixing my comp cos i lost my hope already..

On Tuesday i had napha test and i reach home ard 710. i am soo tired that i slept too early..and bcos of that we had to stay back on wed for the conversational mandarin class. and will be goiing back at 515

On Wed is my bdae..!! haha..it was a fun day and memorable day for me. Thanks guyz...
And Hazwani bt Hussin was the first one to wish me . 3 time somemore..thanks bbabes..luv ya..

Sorry for the messy bed and thanks for all the pleasant presents that i have receive from u guys..

To Ayu Lavinge, Jacklyn Knowles, Hajar, Vic, Manju, Aishah for these wonderful presents and the card..And here goes..Mamasay,mamasay mamaco saw....

To Bad for the earrings...

To sukh, yusof and daya for the muffins...

To Daya for the cute bdae card and the gelang and also the hdp thingy...

Sukhjeet for the many2 toblerones and the tshirt and the card that forbid me to LOVE SAlman Khan and other heros...LOL!!!

Thank you mama for the rocher!!! Mimi for the hugs and kisses!!

Thanks to my FUTURE brother-in-law for the belgian chocolate ice cream cake. the ice cream..from andersons...delicious..

AND also THANKS to the people that i have left out and those who have taken the trouble to wish me HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!

Thank YOU

2008-01-02T20:28:00.000+08:00

haiya...was suppose to meet my group mates..but i couldnt make it la..i reall ythink that i shud have self restrain cause i drank a lot of gassy drink and my stomach now is disagreeing to every single thing i ate..i am soo having indigestion and constipation..where is ur discipline?? just because u felt very thirsty u had to buy gas drink and now ..da padan muke kau..
so now i cant drink coke or pepsi or......
for the mometn i also canot eat spicy stuff and for the moment i feel so bedridden..i cannot sleep at night what with my stomach churnning not because of starving but the air inside is making me nuts and losing all my sleep..haiz...maybe because of stress i started the habit of drinking gassy drinks which i had left behind ever since secondary skooll...so sad..that my discipline went awry at that moment...

as usual when i am bedridden i always read books and here are some quotes...

suspicions always haunts the guitly mind

the course of true love never did run smooth

to be or not to be; that is the question

(quoted by shakespeare)

outingz

2007-12-27T22:18:00.000+08:00

Haha..lotsa photos to come when syira sent me..then i post..

K..today, we went out walk2. met wanie at yishun and as usual i have to wait for her. but i admit i was a bit early la..just 5 mins early.. then we met syira at cityhall..kesian..sakit rupernye..

anyway we ate at ljs.for a long while i think cos we are slow eaters.. then we window shop. tot of buying slippers at charles and keith but it was pricey and i wasnt into the slippers..we walk and walk but to no avail..then we went to sit and lepaks at merlion and reminisce the past.. sometimes its just fun when we think of our past and just laugh at ourself or at others and i guess i sort of miss my secondary skool life..and we kinda so sentimental..actually me and syira la..si wanie no feelings...so we sat there for a long time and took the photos..then find out from each other what other friends were doing..haha...then i want to find a present for my fwen but it was a bit too pricey too..

so at last nak carik slipper punye pasal..they accompany me back to cp..terserempak with fareez..oh yar happy belated bdae anyway...haha..so desperate that i bought the first one i set my eyes on..mahal pon mahal lah..what to do..then syira had to go home fast..so she chow first..me and wanie went buy bubble tea cos we were so haus la..

we went to interchange and i accompanied wanie to wait for her "friend" there..but never got to see his face cos the moment my bus come, his bus also arrive..i never wait cos i tak leh tahan la..nak wee wee and do big biz...LOL...but wanie ..so sweeet came all the way to my house to pass me the pressie..so touch..thanks gal..and yar thanks to her "friend" afai...too..

so thats all and u two ask me to uppload the pix yet u guys nt online..ape dah..nemmind when i see u online i will pass it to u..want to sent email the file too big even tho i xipped it ..haiz..but niwaes..lets go out more man...

2007-12-17T14:20:00.000+08:00

u noe..holidays are here!! and for once i want to concentrate on my three projects that i have done halfway..so slack man this term..

okay..u noe wat..i read my friend's blog and i donno whether to praise him for his fine vocab or degrade him for his bluntness..i mean he might not know that ppl read his blog so i think he should refrain from using some words cos he tends to write about the general views and sometimes when i read it it could hurt. pls la eh..some ppl will think that you write about them even tho you did not..i mean i feel like tagging him but i refrain la..cos i don want to start a fight.

i just wanna say this to him. u could say that its ur right to write those entries and u have the freedom of speech but hey what u lack is insensitivity. and actually what u have written is so referring to you..pls reflect urself and pls use kinder words to describe girls cause the way u are describing women now is like degrading them and not respecting them..so i think all the advises that u say "respect urself" mean it is referring to u urself..ok

tata

2007-12-10T17:25:00.000+08:00

ok...im so damn tired today...!!!

i tot of not going to skool today but really i have to come one way or another... random updates...

last friday..after skool went home and after eating and all...rest for half and hr before bathing and get ready for my work..friday was very busy la..the books i had to shelve were a lot and thank god ariffin was ther..i felt bad coz i didnt know that it was his last day..even tho he once took my position at fiction i got no feud with him and ironically i tok to him..on friday was the longest conversation i had with him and whatever it is i did partner with him at fiction and business..and now im like so permanent at the biz section and over 15 shelves and loads of books..im tired...but im use to it la..friday was a very fun day at werk even tho it was tiring..and if im not wrong herman help me but went to art section to help nora before coming back to help me again..stupid..take more trolley for me la...reached home ard 1050 like that...

then saturday woke up at 6.00 am ..got ready and headed to meet yusof at station before going to yishun for the chingay practice..and like usual i had to fall like nangka busuk on the skool premises..guess where..the basketball court..im telling u that i will fall at every skool i stepped into..haha..and as a result i couldnt play the icebreaking games with them cos i had a bandage ..and it was yusof bdae..after that rushed home and bathe and eat before meeting sukh at bugis to buy sof a bdae pressie..with my leg hurting of course..after that we went to work...and yar..mami oso was there to help me to biz section since her icon section got another person..it was tiring and saturday was always busy...

on sunday..werkin again and this time at work i really had no strength..it ws my slowest straightening ever..and yar thank goodness the books were little...but it was messy..straightening wise..i had fairoz to help me..ot only he help me straigtening, he oso help check my place for me...he is a very nice mature guy.. and vertino too..thx guys..and herman is nuts..laughing to himself while reading comics..hehe..oh yar he is leaving for australia on mon..see snow konon..mcm real jer..

and today..i was limping ..body aching and i was not hyper la..and nowadays i dont walk home nimore..i always take bus and its a waste of money la..and hajar and me ate prata..yeah..!!!! the kari ikan nice....

HAPPY BDAE TO CORIN, ERNEST, YUSOF ---- FAIZ, SHAHIDAH AND NADIA...!!!

good for them only nineteen whereas im turning 20 in like a months time..what luck..haha

2007-11-28T20:23:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum

This entry is dedicated fully to my dearest friend, Syira...

I donno whats upsetting u dear. but chins up k... i dont why when i read ur on monday, i feel very disturbed. I mean i really really know how u feel. The feeling pf being ostracised and all..it hurts la when parents treat us that way. i noe. "Not being in JC or Poly" neither here nor there. like me, i thot i made the wrong desicion going to ite. but after a yr, i have no regrets. Its just a much longer way to success i guess. me being successful going to POly- that i donno. depends on luck solely.

Being friends with u, i noe u arent stupid. Just treat what they say as a motivation. k.. i disappoint my parents too by not going to poly and they are disapponted. but i am too. and i always think of their disappointed looks to keep me going. sometimes i feel like giving up, not thinking of my future. but then i just think of my parents and it gives me strength. no matter what they are our parents.

Actually i envy u cause u get to go to art skool and not ite. So treasure it and prove to ppl who think u cannot do it. cos u can ..hehe..
Syira..kau leh panggil aku mak nenek skg..rindu ah..hehe...don take my advice to heart k..bye!!!

2007-11-19T17:58:00.000+08:00

aSSALMUALAIKUM

Firstly...that alien made my day go so very bad la..i mean..u expect me to fight for the place with a friend ..eh helo..im not the type to snatch ppl's opportunity even tho sometimes i shud do that..but doesnt it seem so wrong..i mean dont try to drive a wedge btween freiends la..i rather let it go even tho it pains me la..nemin..not my rezeki la..so i have to wait for another opportunity k..

so guys ..sorry for the bad tempered me just now..i could have thrown something at that old folk if i never control myself....so sorry for my actions la..

PS..sukhjeet..im waiting for the pix la dei..give me soon k..

2007-11-17T09:40:00.000+08:00

Okies...Updates..

sukh, daya, hajar , bad and i went to watch om shanti om at yishun on thursaday..it was great the movie has all the genres; be it comedy, horror and action...everything..im pestering my mum to buy the dvd..haha

Then on friday, i was supposed to attend this award presentiation thingy but hmm i went to work instead..and fyi..im having a flu and sore throat..damn..and yar..i think im signing up for attachment again..should be going to raffles med grp if there is no changes by the bobblehead..haha..anyways just try my luck..but having headache gow to handle part time job and attachment..so my plan is i will be working from mon to sun..and studying in the trains la..

Pictures will come when sukh send me the pixs...

EXHAUSTED..!!!

2007-11-12T14:43:00.000+08:00

Just got to know that the Chingay practice will clash with my working schedule..Oh my gosh, im so stress up now..

So i have to finish my ISP before December and i have to finish up my PR report by mid december.

Then the 2nd PR project abt the Chingay is due ard feb like that..Gila man..
If not for the project, i would never bother to join Chingayla.. moron,,

2007-11-11T11:42:00.000+08:00

The long overdue photos...hehe..kk..enjoy..just random photos..

2007-11-11T11:20:00.000+08:00

...Assalamualaikum...

Okay...Now a proper update..i hope..okay..

School has been reopen for a mth now i think. So far the module i am taking is PR- public relations, AOA - Advance office applications and ISP - Independent study programme..I am exempted from HRA as i did my attachment already..Just hope i would pass my attachment with flying colours la..

PR is so damn boring..Alien cant handle lecture with two classes and we would always end up not learning anything just because the board is dirty...kan bad..niwae, its frustrating la since i have concluded that i have to study for the exams without the help of this alien..2 projects for PR including presentaion and 1 project or report for my ISP..haiyah..hope i could hancdle it..

Okie dokey..fyi..im still working at the library and im so happy that for 2 days in a row, im doing fiction..i did biz twice and im so sorry to say that w/o help i cant finish straightening..so might as well let ariffin station there since he is a guy and herman will definitely help and yar he always finish straightening..okies...heard tt he wants to resign soon..haha..the office politics is there for all of us to see..thats abt it.

i hope i could give more proper updates soon even though i doubt so coz i will be busy working, skooling and haha projects..when will projects ever end..A poly guy that i once knew said that projcts will never ed because if we went poly then more projects will be waiting for us..

Insya Allah i can go Poly..Doakan..

OM SHANTI OM!!! HERE I COME..SOON!!
ALL HOT GIRLS PUT YOUR HANDS UP AND SAY...OM SHANTI OM
ALL SCHOOLBOYS COME AND MAKE SOME NOISE AND SAY ... OM SHANTI OM..!!!

2007-11-10T14:50:00.000+08:00

AloHa!!!

Blabla bla bla bla....Actually right... i dont want to blog...

But here is my new blogskin...Thankieu to my youngr sis..and her help...

I didnt do much as im a lazy person..Ask my friends and they will know

kk..updates will be posted soon..

Chowwwww....I'm going off to work in a few minutes...Buuuuuubbbbyyyyeee!!!!!

2007-10-07T15:16:00.000+08:00

Yesterday..i dreamt that my tooth patah...its an omen by the senior folks that something bad is going to happen..prior to this dream, i dreamt that my teeth were painful. but it didnt patah..now finally it does and its bad lah..funny thing is i always get this premonitions when something bad is happening or is going to happen. haiya..i feel very uneasy..

KK...yesterday, after making kuih with mummy and mira..i went out with wani and ifa..padahal smlman i work so penat la..but they are my friends and i am going to prioritise my life ..WHATS WRONG WITH FORKING OUT JUST 1 DAY OUT OF THE 365 DAYS FOR A FRIEND... its not as if we are going to meetr like once amth gituk..hahah..funny la..even if they got a byfriend..haha..anyways...we went to bugis to search for bags and shoes but tak berkenan so we went beach road to buke puase..walau eh..we tambah air la dei..coz the weather is hot. we met with farid too...with his girlfriend..then we made our way to far east and wanie saw izzat idris..haha..sorry i didnt see u la..tgh ngantuk..niwae ifa bought her shoes and i bought mine..finally..but too bad wanie and ifa lom find the right bag to match..anways thx for accompanying each other la..and updating each other with kite nyer lives..

i reach home ard 11..and im so damn tired but i still watch tv till 1 and slept at 1 then woke up at 420 to sahur the wake up at 845 to start cleaning up...wat a tiring day..and yar..tmr werking somemore..whoa says we cant prioritise tim..theres time for werk adn time for fun ..its a matter of whether we tried our best or not..durhhh

2007-09-29T16:22:00.000+08:00

Otey!

First thing i wanna say is a very BIG thank you to my dear twinnie for covering for me during the weekends. Hpe u enjoy your time back there and be happy...!!!

Secondly, my first week of attachment is quite good..i learnt a lot of good things. I've done faxing, filing,photocopying and data entry plus calculations of some property value..Me and lina was posted to the real estate department and after betty shpwed us ard for like half and hour and talk to us about the rules and all, straightaway we were put down to work..i love stamping the stamp tag on the cheque books..it made me feel like im rich haha..but it was a great experience. But then starting from second week onwards im going to start 8.30 to 5.30 since i wanna go home to break fast..better la..we just ask..but betty was so nice that she was so accommodating..

Now weekends i tot i wanna rest but then i got alot of cleaning up to do lah dei..tired..and funny enough i can sleep standiing up in the train..oh my dear...with all the make up and smart clothes, i had to make full of myself..and yes..my bones are going to suffer as the air con inside the office is freezing cold...CoOLD!...i had to visit the toilet often la now..cant help it..during lunch we would just wak out and explore the place...the lift we took brought pressure to our ears and i always would be deaf..haha..we took the lift all the way to the 36th floor before transferring lift to the 25th floor..so the leceh...and the lounge there..the sofa is for sleeping man..when i rest my butt there i could sleep..haha...

kk..gotta go..help my behain do her art work..

2007-09-21T10:15:00.000+08:00

::..A friend can tell you things that you don't want to tell yourself..::

I wish i can tell my friends things that they dont wanna hear and vice versa..Haiz

My hols are very boring except for work la..and speaking of work..i am working later today at 430 till 9 ..sure tired oe then my stomachache act up again..tmr werking and sunday oso working ..all three days finish at nine . then the following day start attachment walaueh...must wake up early in the morning cause it starts at nine and guess what ..im worried for the travelling time as it is at tanjong pagar..haiya..so on monday i will go extra early..not only kancheong but its always good to be early and give them a good impression right..its called discipline la dei..And yusof i will take picture of the building..hehe

And damn i cant shit lah this few days of fasting..but when stomachache the shit don wanna come out..troublesome..

Looking forward to meeting my colleagues..they made an effort to make me feel like home especially to kak mimah kak nora aisyah and fairuz..hehe..thank goodness i work the night shift since i heard that the mornig shift people are very two face people..the night shift people are all very accommodating and friendly..and like to tease me la..mentang2 aku bdk baru la kan..hehe

2007-09-18T11:05:00.000+08:00

wow..i do have a lot of grievances. posting two entry in day.
I feel like my friends are drifting away from me ...what kind of friends do i have.
i am working u are working
no matter how tired i will keep aside sometime with my friends but....
i don wanna say anything anymore...hurt..whatever la..im washing my hands of u..
just hope that when u get married don forget to invite me coz i think tt will only be the time for me to see u all....funny and ironic isnt it...

2007-09-18T10:49:00.000+08:00

Okay for once i am tired of keeping it all inside..i have been thinking not only since yesterday but for a few weeks now.
There is this scenario.
A possessive girlfriend who doubt their friends...wth!!!
She will always feel jealous when her guy talks or play ard with the friends but hey we are all his friends too not only yours. And if we are ur friends then don doubt us la..The problem with u is that u don trust urself. You are one paranoid girl man. Even if you think we are snatching him from u then think again..u think we have nothing better to do then i donno wat to say. Please learn not to be possessive. You gt to think from all angles. LEARN IT!!! Move on...and do u know that when u doubt me its ok but i came to find out that u doubt my other friends. Then one day u will regret it for saying those things in that kind of tone. U think we want ur guy so much ah. C'mon la..Think again if it is not for us u won progress much ok..Loving ur guy doesnt mean hurting his or ur friends and doubting them and urself. One day if u marry him, u will have to share him with his family. If u cant learn to share him with his friends then think of what will happen in the future. Be pragmatic damn it.. I know u are afraid of losing him la but he not the only tree in the forest and if he is the only tree in the forest for you then treasure him and build the r/s based on trust and love ot base on fear of losing him and hurting others.

If u think u are that person im referring to, then think deeply and reflect. I might be right , i might be wrong but just consider what i said. and don take it to heart coz im saying this for ur own good . Its only us u r hurting but in future i donno..if u don accept wat i write then pretend i never wrote anything ...

2007-09-17T10:27:00.000+08:00

Just random photos..and that lil girl below is so cute..wanna bite ur cheeks nadra..
hehe!

2007-09-12T20:31:00.000+08:00

I just wanna say that you have been the only one who can make me laugh cry mad and sad in my whole life...

Ape boleh buat..Tak ade jodoh

2007-09-12T20:30:00.001+08:00

Ok...Its been along time since i have updated albeit the one to my dearest Wanie...Been busy with work and exams particularly..My room is in a mess as my books are all strewn all over the place. Already made a note that i am going to start clearing up by next week as I will be busy working on friday sat sun...alamak..fasting month domemore..i dont know how to survive at work but insya Allah boleh..I screw my marketing paper but i hope i will do well for my admin paper.. hope so la...

I've taken 3 weeks off my library job as i am going to my attachment at Tanjong Pagar at CApital Tower. Working at a law firm..Coincidence.. i wanted to become a lawyer when i grow up.. but im going there on the basis that im helping the senior clerk.. hope it turns well..so my breaking fast will no longer be spend with my family but i have to break my fast outside on my way home...sad right..wat to do..no pain no gain..
And yarh..to hajar if u are covering for me thank you so muchie..my twinnie...

To all Muslims out there Selamat Berpuase.. !!!!

2007-09-10T20:23:00.000+08:00

To my dearest Wanie..I know that you are going through a major crisis right now. I know that no matter how hard u wanna forget him, the memories will always come back to haunt u..i know how u feel and its hard to forget a person when u have committed urself to the relationship..but understand that there is always a reason something happen. Like u say its difficult..but no matter what u still have a long way to ur future. Don because of one failed relationship, u wanna give up and throw ur future down the drain..i ve been w/o a guy all thru the yrs but i turn out fine. it does not mean that everything is ruin. You just try to pick urself up and stand when u fall and thats what u do..maybe he dont deserve u or u deserve someone better..its not always bad gurl..What u said to me today was very disturbing. u might be joking but pls don let it come true okies..cause all of us care abt u.. no matter what dont be so depress k..or desperate for a guy..theres still a long way to go..don be aad..this is just a general advice to u as i don really know what happen between u two..Only rmbr the happy memories u two created and not the bad and sorrowful ones..no use gurl..after the exams i lend u a listening ear ok..just like before..

2007-08-20T16:04:00.000+08:00

*No one can seems to except anyone as they are anymore*

Ok..tiring day as usual..Admin project down. 2 to go...SW and Marketing..then finish..oh ya..have to deal with NAPHA Test which was postpone..ok..that no need to werry..k..im confused la..dilemma with my own feelings. haiyah..maybe i think too much and that things are not happening like what i think its happening..but one side of me wants it to be true but another side of me really think that its too good to be tru.. yarh i prefer to believe the latter...but i hope its not ..haha..u guys will not have any idea what im toking abt anyway..hha

tag: munchie doughnuts anybody...???

hehe

2007-08-13T20:23:00.000+08:00

*My heart is bleeding, but you will never see the blood...just like the tears, there will never be enough...*

Been busy this few days and gonna still be busy..for the moments to come..i started work last week..thx to my mates...and guess what ...i been reaching home at 1030 every fri,sat ,sun...still a bit weird la as im still new . niwaes ..yesterday i was in the bus when i saw this gd looking guy.. i didnt now him and vice versa..and the shocking thing was that he blew me a kiss..what the h**l..but he make me smile tho..haha..

Now the remainign days that im not werking im busy doing projects and studying for my upcoming exams..its gonna test my abilities of time mgmt..i hope i can handle it with exams work and fasting mth coming up...

2007-08-03T21:00:00.000+08:00

Alamak..today sian lah..run 2.4km..i fail like usual and somemore that ashraf and sha..alahai..they relli remind me of syafiq and shahril..i can still vividly rmbr syafiq torturing me to run until i finish even tho i gt asthma attack..hhaha....tired la..after that went and play games..captain ball...and my team super dupEr la..with all the sports people..haha...bad, yusof, hajar, ashraf, bad, fyn..super Duper la..i think we won..

then thought of buying sports shoe cos my shoe relli no friction lor..search and search ..not one i like...then ate kfc with vic and daya..
then vic wanna go marina sq..we follow her then don have new pair of shoes at topshop so we went suntec and shop like mad. Our leg and i think my ankle were about to break la..haha,,but finally vic bought her shoes..gt discount la..then daya bought her top and i ende dnot buying anything except more food ..so here comes the fats that i just burn ..haha

then vic'c mom fetch us and send us to sembawang mrt st..then we went home..daya took bus..i tot of taking bus but then i think walk faster...so i walk and i think i broke the record. i always walk at least 15 min before reaching home..just now i walk only 10 min..what a marathon..hhaha

2007-08-03T11:50:00.000+08:00

Halo!!! Just now released at 2 ..then i was in dilemma...Jacky and gang invited me to go watch movie ALONE with them...i didnt want to waste money but it was so tempting..for th first time since first year we went in big grp. haha...Lets see..jack, ayu, vic, charlene, hajar, tasha, yanie, sukhjeet and MANJU...!!!haha..but i dont like GV la..so lame and the theatre smell so damn like urine..we split into two grp since nt enuf..it was quite scary la..but LINA never watch the scary part..except accidentally la...and i think me, manju, ayu and sukh were the only ones making so much noise...even tho jacky sit wit us but she so maintain...and manju..u relli almost took my jacket tau..haha...too bad daya had to work so cant join us..takpe..next week...lets go rush hour 3 haa..Lina is broke..for almost 3 weeks straight i went movie-ing..damn..when to finish project and study..trouble awaits..last week is the last week i promise..insyaAllah

And i made a bet which i lost to Yusof..so on 8 Aug..i have to wear my new specs..feel very awkward la...

PIE project finish now comes SW project then finish up admin and marketing then tadaa..finis..easier said than done..haha

kk...snoozing.....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHEILA....!!!AGAIN...

a good guy comes to girls tt wait

2007-07-31T11:53:00.000+08:00

*A good guy will always come to girls that wait*

Hmm..What am i to say? I dunno...
Okay...Been planning to watch movie with Daya after National Day but dunno whether confirm or not...Hee..i learn not to expect so much from my friends la..been very used to last minute changes that i don want to even bother anymore..

Ok..My eyes have been twitching for the past 3 or 4 days at the same spot and i had a dream or nightmare..i dunno how to describe. but it felt real la..and always something will happen to that person..i try not to thik about it la since he is nothing to me. Seriously, im tired of even trying to think. Been hoping a lot ....but alas....just hope that nothing happened to him.

Hmm..projects projects and more projects..can u believe that SW also have project. and NAPHA test coming..i don plan to pass anyway..just go thru it and hope for a good result. Did well for my CA and i hope i will do well for my exams..i just hope that my Admin project wont pull down my project. marketing its okay..but never be overconfident Lina..See what happen in sec school..they beat u to just a point and they can go poly and where id u end up..don look down and underestimate ur friends lina...they are better than you in many ways..anyway gotta go...

P.S: Where the hell is my primary school friends????

2007-07-25T20:47:00.000+08:00

okey...just came back from watching movie at AMk Hub with Daya, manju, sukh and jack..jack after much persuading..haha...me and manju can throw popcorn at each other..funny la..hehe..but that was the first time in many years that i went to a public toilet coz i cant take it la.. my bladder was about to burst la..and i cant donate blood just bcoz i miss the requirement of 12.5 of iron..which mine is 12.4..i really want to donate blood..crazie rite...tmr have to do project in skool andprobably will go home late again..and return home...my mood worsen..fcuking la ... alll my fault..never once they scold my younger sister..!!..stupidla...fine i take all the blame and u go on spoiling ur favourite child in the world ya... i wash my hands off all this...don even wanna bother myself..humph..!!!

2007-07-16T20:35:00.000+08:00

Yo...I just watched Harry Potter and the order of phoenix...To all the souls that says this movie is boring then i might suggest you damn souls to just read the book as it is so much more detail.. and yeah...you guys don call urself fans of harry potter if you guys don read the book and understand it. you will not appreciate the movie like fans do..thats it..

Lina..Study..!!!

2007-07-11T17:18:00.000+08:00

Yarh..today started the day very bad. i came like so early and my friend came late. i have to wait..my secondary people know that i am very punctual. haha..so we study last min la. after that when we know that it was running we went to take the bus. we didnt carry umbrella so when we dash out of the bus we ran for the skool. we cross the road when this incoming bus just speed thru and yeah guess what we were drenched and ironically all of us are from the same class. enter the class drenched. and we waited for llike people to come to start our CA. And guess what ..more bad things..All that i had studied didnt come out and when i flip the page i was like blank..so thats my day today fcuking terrible..why? i oso donno..haiya..just have to do 200% better for the exam as i know that my project for OA is like half heartedly done..klah bubbye!!!

2007-07-04T12:49:00.000+08:00

the things i bought and the pix we took..and there is a pants but batt flat so ther goes my money..

2007-07-04T12:38:00.000+08:00

*What matters is not the idea a man holds, but the depth at which he holds it*

Actually i was just sitting at home rotting since my plan to go out fell through.But then si Wani call me and ask me if i wanna go out. I felt a bit jauh hati la at first then when she said she postpone visiting her datuk , i felt bad, so i went out with her..met her at yishun ard 2..hmm like usual she was late or rather i was a bit early. so i waited for her..then ard 215 then she arrive.. we went bugis to shop for my things actually. then she also shop for couples tee for her bf cauuse its his bdae tis fri..so i sort of accompany her too..then she made me fall in love with this pair of heels then i bought it in a moment of folly..there goes my !KaChing!..haha...went to bugis junction to shop for my wallet..settle for this wallet which im not so fond. but i still bought it coz its quite nice..just that i didnt fall in love with it at first sight. haha...then bought more tof her things and all this shopping for just 2 hours..see.. who says gurls need hours and hours to shop for things..in a matter of a ccouple of hours, we were full of bags..then she alighted at novena to visit her atok while i make my lonely journey home w/o my mp#..damn so boring in the train..

2007-07-04T01:52:00.000+08:00

These are some of the AMIC pix..I have not send to pix to some of u..u can haunt me when im online cause i cant send the pix thru email as it is too big...

And finally to yusof and ashraf..BON VOYAGE! to u guys..since u guys are gg to hongkong...belikan souvenir tau..!!! hehe..kk..sorry for not being able to send u guys off..

2007-07-02T12:45:00.000+08:00

"Many knows how to flatter, few knows how to praise"

A long time, i guess..here i go again...
Actually, i plan to just stop blogging. But i guess when boredom strikes me , blogging is where i turn to other than drawing. hehe..So i change just the picture of me..

My first weeks of hols, i spent on my projects.
My second week of hols, i spent working at the Grand Copthorne Waterfront Hotel with the other 9 ISNs...i think i would post some of the many pix we took..All my face inside the photos turns out bad..okay..enough..
Whats left of my holidays i spent it by catching up on my sleep and revising for my CA...Imagine waking up 5.30 am everyday as the journey to the hotel was long..haiya..so definitely have to catch up on my dear sleep...

And it was great yar..Paired uo with Mr Shareezal during registration..but i tot i sort of was abandon as he help out the guys..hehe..oh and by the way, i was in charge of registaring the philippine, malaysia maldives, pakistan oh what LMNOP countries..thats a lot yar..sometimes i don even hear what they speak..

I was then paired up with Mr Yusof when we were in charge of the rooms whereby the speakers were speaking..oh so interesting talk..especially the media and youth..rite sof..?But it was tiring..we had to stand up and usher ppl in and out..and the second day, i was sort of left alone at some pt as sof has to go help the others..sometimes i was accompanied by ashraf, hajar and hid..nicee man..and first time ash act like a mat ooii...!!! I also had a chnace to see some of my friends wearing their best at Gala dinner and the last day of the conference..it was sad lah..we also took a pic with Datuk Seri Anwar Ibrahim..haha..and damn i miss working there..haha..and thanks to yusof , i know how to set up the laptop and the projector together..it was kind of easy..im a fast learner rite..chey..!!

Lastly..Wawa...looking forward to going out with u and the others soon..call up aite..Yeah!! Lets not disappoint each other anymore..hehe!!

P.S: want the pictures..get from me or yusof..and yar..i want the pictures with me inside yer hajar..lup ya all...haha

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