Wednesday, August 27, 2008
I just wanna share two poems that i have written during my ITE days..I chanced upon them while i was cleaning my bookcase and i found them ignored among the many books there. So i hope u just read and enjoy cause it tells the story and feelings of how i once felt pining for somebody that doesnt even know that i used to have feelings for him However im sorry for the inconvenience as the 2 poems are written in malay..No discrimination to my other friends of different race.Rindu
Biarkan ku sendiri dalam kegelapan
Apakah lagi dalam ketenangan
Aku sering tertanya-tanya akan penantian
Yang sudah kuanggap akn berakhir dengan kenangan
Dalam diam ku bersedih
Perasaan pilu, benci, sayu dan kasih
Ada juga rasa sendu
Dalam diam ku juga merindu
Tetapi rindu yang cuma disia-siakan
Apa lagi hendak kukatakan
RINDU, tetap wujud, tetap ada
Tetapi hanya tinggal sisa-sisa
Akanku lupakan segala rintihanku
Dan mulakan perjalanan baru untuk hidupku
Akan kulontarkan senyumanku
Demi kebahagiaan yang selalu kualu-alu
Memori
Dalam gelap aku menderita
Ketika terang aku bergembira
Detik bersamamu telah pun sudah
Hanya tinggal hati yg berbisa
MEMORI kami telah ku buang
Ke sudut dimana memori hanya tinggal kenangan
Akanku keluarkannya bila mahu dikenang
Dan akanku simpan bila telah dapat ketenangan
Okie...to those who don understand its ok...but to those who have an idea of what im referring to...just keep it to urself la..
Anyways these are written when im still unattached and now, to me everything is in the past. I have tried my best to forget him and yes i cant get him out of my mind completely. Thus in the 2nd poem, the memories will be out when i want to reminisce and i will keep when im done. Cause to me everyone has a past. It doesnt mean that i have to get rid of my past and memories to get new ones. Memories will always be yours and nobody can take it from you not unless u have amnesia or senile dementia or something like that. Haha.
To my friends who are worried about me, im fine and i am happy with my relationship at the moment. so just pray for me and im gonna be ok.