Thursday, August 17, 2006
LIFE!
Today was sort of an up and down day. hmm..what should i say..Actually since the start of the week, my days are all..*s....t* ..paham2 jelah..haiz..today just roam ard like stupid ppl..haha..i don think i can go forever lepak-ing with them..haha..Wawa..i need to see you..aku stress lah..tlg lah aku..jumpelah aku eh..one of this days..sometimes i feel like just going to your house..haha..main2 jelah..Papelah..tmr i have to go to senoko incineration plant..i guess my business attendance will drop AGAIN...My accounts too..it seems that i went for every single lessons but i just feel like i have been shortchanged you now..i feel like i don deserve the 90 something attendance rate..i hate it but what to do..i just dont UNDERSTAND how they fcuking count the attendance..i was like there..i did not take approve leave AT ALL..haiz..whatever lah ehk..You guys want to put my attendance as 0 also can..i just want to get out from ite.I also feel like i've been shortchange in life..you know..work had play less bt nothing to show for my effort. i feel like giving up but im not that kind of person.. i feel tired for working so hard on my studies..really hard but i don get the deserved reward. my other friends..EFFORTLESSLY just got into a course they want..Im not angry. Im just frustrated that why it has to be me of all ppl?..Yup i know life is nt really unfair but i donno. i feel hurt sometimes when i see my old friends..i feel tt they are mocking at me..maybe ade hikmah disebaliknye. itu lah yg selalu aku bilang pada diri sendiri..just for the sake of convincing myself..i am really very, very tired..i just hope that one day my life will be for the better..i give ppl advice but why dont i practised what i say..you are so damn stupid..whatever it is..i will try to be happy ard other ppl..*shrugs*..im past caring bout myself anymore..even if im sick i dont care..haiz..