Saturday, February 04, 2006
Worrywart
I've been thinking about my future.....and till now i don't really know which diretion i really want to go...i just been told by my friend that maybe, just maybe that we will be getting our o level results by 10 feb. i am really under pressure because if i don't do well, my family, friends and teachers will probably laugh at me cause they think i can do well....i don't want to disappoint them especially my family and teachers cause they expect alot from me..my teachers have been patient in teaching me and i will feel more disheartened if i let them down...My friends think and say that i will do well but really i don't have that much of their confidence cause i did the papers and i thought i screwed up on my english, physics and my c. humanities paper. i really wish i can turn back time..i guess the most important thing is i don't want to disappoint my parents..they don't say it but i know they hope for me to go to poly..i just hope and pray that i won't disappoint them..i want to see the replica, duplicate face of my mom when she saw my n level results as i got 6 pts..i want to see the happiness in her eyes...cause i think i have never made my parents that happy..By passing my o level, i think that is the only way to make them happy and notice me more...Ya Allah....tolonglah hambaMu ini....AKU berdoa ibubapaku sentiasa dlm kegembiraan....walauapapun yg terjadi....Amin....