Thursday, October 08, 2009
Hai I'm back
Updates??
Boyfie and me have been doing superbly well spending lots of time for the past 2 weeks almost evry day together cause he leave for overseas reservist to taiwan..So in love with abg..and i regard him as my hubby already..
he left for taiwan yesterday and i practically cried myself to sleep. Even tho ppl tried to console me to just pray for his safety and well being, i still cant help but feel so sadden by his departure. No matter what ppl say i know wat i have to do. but the thing is i am still worried for him. im scared anything will happen to him. nobody will understand my situation because they have nvr went thru this before.
it is so sad..i cried a lot 2 days before he left and the day he left i did not cry cause i don him to be worried abt me and he praised me saying "thats my good girl..im proud of you.." and i wanted to burst into tears.
just now i was doing my report annd suddenly my mind thought of him and i wanted to cry right thhere but i told myself not to cry in school.
i really love him more than anything..pls come back syg..i need you..
nobody to call me in the middle of the night and asking me to go to sleep. nobody to msg me .. nobody to take care of my life and nobody to be concern when im sick..yup the love from family is different from the love experience with bf..
i need to be brave..pls help me !!! im not that strong..
7:21 PM
Saturday, August 29, 2009
Updates????
Okay the fasting month is going smoothly for me. I'll be getting busier now that i have more projects which means more reports and projects that need me to travel around to shopping centres. haiz..so tiring i guess and i will be doing a lot of overtime as the places i need to go are mostly at the east area and yup the hougang area. why cant i just go to causeway point. hmm..
as for my relationship with boyfie it is still strong even tho we are going thru tough times whereby our patience for each other is running thin and ya when i get on his nerves he back off and when he gets on my nerves i will back off..i learn from my secondary skool experience that fire cant fight with fire.so when he is the fire i willl become the water and vice versa..compromising can be quite easy but at times tough. no matter what we will still be with each other..i just don want him to go overseas reservist. i will miss him alot.. :( what am i gonna do then ,,haiz.. nobody to accompany me... can i follow him overseas..i will smuggle myself maybe and tag along with him..haha..joking..
okay..theres nothing more to say..so bored..
1:31 PM
Tuesday, August 04, 2009
Boyfie is so thin now. It breaks my heart to see him so thin. As a result, im feeling the strain from it. Sometimes i can be very difficult with him. I will create problems unintentionally. He would always be frustrated but never angry no matter what. It hurts me sometimes to see what he is going thru but he never let his problems affect us. If it was me, i would vent it out on anybody who step on my toes. but he would nvr be able to get angry with me.
To somebody,
try and try and try but nobody understands. some even doubt. C'mon lah, we don need ur freaking help.just try to emphatize la..fyi, emphatize is to put urself in somebody else's shoes. thats why nobody ever ask for ur help. im telling u if u cant learn to emphatize, then no matter how successful u are u still lack the humanity in u. but thats just the fact that u are just plain coldblooded..i will prove to u that i can be as successful as any other being in this world and i will make sure that u don look down on ppl like me. i will work towards that and u will be the source of my motivation. i will look at ur face and that face will always remind me not be a coldhearted coldblooded jerk that can ever live and breathe in this world. and in future like say 10 freaking long years down the road, if u need help then please..and i mean it...please don even bother to ask for help especially mine.ppl like you are just plain insensitive. i will make sure u eat ur words. the smirk on ur face i will wipe it off and if i ever die before that happens then i think its ur lucky day. hope something similar will happen to u not ur close friends or family but somebody u love so so much and dearly. its cruel of me to say this i know but wat to do life is cruel..
9:53 AM
